random : its great that more and more people are coming to realise the true grace message. its juts warm and comforting to know (:

slacked at home today till evening, before heading for half-sis's birthday party ! it was great, to just see her enjoy her day, even though i had no part in the planning of it. but it was comforting and joyful to see someone just realise that people around her care.

God just made me realise today how much i've drifted from some people, mainly cause i keep going to other churches, or i dont really put in as much effort into friendships as i used to. and God just made me realise the truth so hard. and its difficult, to lay down my pride, and say and admit, that i havent put in effort to maintain friendships, and to show brotherly love, is to love, as christ loved us. i havent really washed their feet for awhile. put aside time, to sail with them on the boat across the sea of galilee.

MABEL ! i'm like to say i'm so, so sorry, that it took me such a long while to realise, that you still do care. every sunday, you're the one who'll come up to me first to say hi, and i know we've had our differences, our arguments and whatnot in the past. i'm sorry not being there for you. i hope you see this !

NAT ! i know things havent been going well between us since december, with alot of shit rising up between us. i guess most of it has been cleared up now, and its been a great blessing knowing you, and having you in my cell. THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS TAKING THE FIRST STEP TO PATCH THINGS UP. it takes alot of courage to take a first step. i salute !

JOEL : hahaha i think back, and i thought to myself 'man we used to be alot closer.' but thats in the past. i apologise, that we drifted so much. unknowingly, but yet the gap is so huge, its probably the depth of 10 firetrenches ! haahaha ORD soon ! lots of time to catch up then (: youth camp too, maybe (:

my dear, dear, ALEX AND JUSTIN : ever since you both went into army, things have changed. and its undeniable. change is nature, and expecially during the phase when 'boys become men'. i miss you both alot. maybe when all 3 of us, when you both can take leave, and i have my holidays, we should take a trip out of town or something. i treasure the times spent with you both, be it just a simple lunch, or just being dumb, or a simple game of dota. sorry i couldnt go down for lan today !

LIONEL : yo dude. we havent caught up in awhile man. i guess we've drifted quite a bit, since our last meeting at block 85. hang out soon man ! miss you dude. though we're in different chuches now, we're still cousins, cousins today, tomorrow, forever (: forlife.

ETHEL, BIRTHDAY GIRL. - happy 20th half-sis ! you know, i realised that we've really, drifted so much, and we were never really that close, as how half-siblings should be man. and i admit, i never really put in that effort to draw us closer and all. and we've been together in so many camps ! the one at R2ME2, the one at salvation army (crazy horse lol !), the one at the geylang campsite, IMBAA at last year's youth camp boy's brigade campsite, and i think there's more but i cant recall lol. man i kinda suck as a half brother sometimes. but your sms really touched me today. thank you so much ! sometimes when i come into church, feeling down and all, talking to you seems to feel like talking to an old friend, where we havent talked much, but its still tight between both of us. brightens up my day. (: THANK YOUUUU. for being there. meet up soon after your taiwan trip, and tell me more about " you know.." :DD

okay thats all (: its 2 am now. and i gotta get up at 6.30 tmr hoho. loong post.