Sunday, June 25, 2006
-Sunday, June 25, 2006
Tmr is gonna be the 1st day of school.. .gonna be boring.. did a bit of work... just hope my hair doesn't get caught.. haha dull man..
JuL scribbled at 10.00PM.Dull.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
-Saturday, June 24, 2006
Today was a bit crazy. haha. went to church at 1 for jamming.. REVOLUTION and FROM GOD ABOVE. need a lil more practice.. but i thought we did ok.. then i actually didn't want to go to paya lebar methodist chuch but then in the end i went.. yea. i was really tired and i thought i would fall asleep.. yea the worship was a bit dead for me. but then i saw the worship and then god reminded me, "no church is perfect". and they are a methodist church so they can't really play to much rock. so yea. g2g sleep.. not thinking properly now.
JuL scribbled at 11.35PM. The father's only son.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
-Thursday, June 22, 2006
Its already been a week since church camp and its the last week of holidays.. depressing man.. been reading more books the past week and just slacking and catching up on music and God. Todae went with the 2 tapestry teams to marian centre and we mingled with the children like playing games and we taught them My Redeemer Lives. yeap was a really fruitful event. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVELYN! After that, went to LJS for lunch then some of the people went home. Then went to watch Just my luck with matt, jmo, serene, elaine and evelyn. yea. starting kinda boring and the ending was also kinda abrupt. After that we split and went our seperate ways. ONly in the train did i realize how tired iwas. ii slpet on te train all the way back home and when i got off at pasir ris, was feeling a bit groggy so i went to take a walk. All of a sudden, i just stood in the middle of white sands, and then i looked around a nd thought to myself, "We're living in such a fast paced world till u seldom see people just sitting down not to have meals but tto talk. Everyone has to rush off etc. how many times do u have to tell your fren 'oh i have something on and i gotta go' yea. i just thought about lindsay lohan and chris pine who acted in ust my luck and i was thinking ' Man, they are so lucky. they make so much money and they do not ahve to worry about money. they have people who all around the world who know them and their job is to act, which is something they like"... And as i walked home i suddenly felt really depressed. Like "Man, i only have 3 days more of holidays and school's about to start and i really gotta get serious or i'm gonna retain.. " Like i got so many worries to worry about and people like lindsay and chris have no worries. they can just sleep inbeds the whole day and drink expressos.." But then as i was reaching home i thought "But what does it matter? We all die the same. So what if they have no worries and they make so much money and i only have 11.50 in my wallet? Does it affect me in any way such that i should be envious? Why should i care that they have things that i don't? But i've got God. Do they have him? If they don't, they're gonna go the wrong way. when they die, all their worldly possessions are gonna disappear. everything they have been chasing after will disappear. Whatever can be seen is temperal, but whatever is unseen is eternal. I have god and i only need him. i don't need anything else. i just have to trust god and he'll provide all my needs. and for that i really wanna thank god. After that, i really felt alot better and while going up ther lift, i said "Thank You Lord, for revealing these thingsa to me such that i may be a better minister to the rest of the world for your name.
I believe God has really spoken to me today and he has helped me realize so many things and that i've been chasing after worldly possessions. So what if a person has a les paul or an SG? If he doesn't have god, he has nothing. If he has god, does having a les paul or an SG make him a better worshipper ? No. Its the heart that counts. And then i broke down and cried and i told myself "I don't need a good guitar to orship god. i don't even need music to worship god. i can worship him anytime. Nad God, I really love you.
Today's experience continues after the church camp and i have gotten many things clearer. Through the church camp, i learnt alot of sutff. but i also drifted from many people after this camp. i feel that certain friendships are beginning to seperate. I'm torn in half and i really dunno who i should go with. i'm being left out of some stuff but its not my call whether i am able to go for these stuffs. I just hope that the friendship that has lasted between us for so long will not be broken. we have the so much in common and our priorities are about much the same. God, Family, Music.. 15 years as close buddies, i hope it'll stay that way. I'll be putting up my song again its called torn in half. its a secular song and i wrote it around last year i guess. or is it the year before? i forgot.
Torn In Half
You're telling me ya' stories,
You're handing me a line..
You're giving me ya' point of view,
but'you never think of mine..
You tell me that ya love me,
You say i ought to laugh,
Why is it that u can't see.
That i am Torn In Half??
I try to laugh,
But i am torn in half..
(Chorus)
The whole world seems divided,
Seems to break apart,
And now what you've decided,
Is gonna break my Heart..(x2)
You say you can't be happy,
With the way things used to be.
That things have changed for ya now,
So they must change for me.
You say that i'll get used to it
That nothing ever lasts..
Yes, thats ya' escuse for it
But i am torn in half
(Chorus x2)
You made some vows a while ago,
Before i came along..
But now i really need you,
You think those vows are wrong..
Ya' headed for a different life
Ya' got a brand new path..
The things you've done cut like a knife..
And leave me torn in half.
You've got a brand new path
But i am torn in half
The whole world seems divided,
Seems to break apart..
And now what You've decided
Is gonna break my heart.(x2)
Just..why can't..ya' see...
That..i..am..
Torn..In..Half...
JuL scribbled at 8.22PM.Revolution
Thursday, June 15, 2006
-Thursday, June 15, 2006
Just came back from church camp. shacked and tired but the joy of the lord is my strength. I'm not gonna talk bout the camp cos i bet there are manyo thers who are gonna blog bout it and it'll just bout make u sleep so i'll blog on wad i learnt.
throughtout this camp, during the altar calls god spoke to me and yea. He gave me many questions and which made me really ponder. Come find me if u wanna know more.during the camp also thought about the tapestry and stuff. Oh yea, we got in btw. Praise be un to god. Amen! then also about my commitment in music. yea. thats bout it.
JuL scribbled at 8.19PM. Tell the world.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
-Saturday, June 10, 2006
WOOO! today was really good. Woke up at 5.30am. was really excited bout the tapestry.
Went to church at 8.45AM and practiced for a solid 2 hours for both teams. Wsas quite shacked when we left church at 12.15PM. But The joy of the lord is my strength and that is everlasting! (:
I didn't feel nervous during the auditions nad though we made some mistakes, i could feel god telling me not to worry. Because everything else aws up to him. For marcus' team, we played the time has come. after we finished, the judges were like "Ok we have a shortage of time and so we only have enough time for u to perform one song. sorry."
There were 2 ways to look at it. Either:
-"They couldn't accept christian music or they really had no time.
-"The time has come was a good song and we only needed that song to get us through." Testify to love was a very shaky song and if we had performed thast song, i guess it would have lowered our chances of getting in.
I will choose the 2nd choice. i could feel that the song was more of a praise song to God rather than like the songs we played for matthias's team which was more of a performance to get us in. I believe God has a role in both the teams. Both teams were God-inspired but when i was playing for team 2, i wasn't aware of the judges. i was just worshipping God through the music. (:
Then after that in the evening went for arise. the songs were really good and i had fun. for once in a very long time, i felt like a child all over again and i could worship God freely. yea.
I've been thinking about songs with annointing and everytime i listen to songs, i try to feel if this sog is God-annoointed.yea, really tired and shacked out. gotta get some rest.
JuL scribbled at 11.55PM. We are the reason, he gave his life.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
-Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Came back from Got God ytd. was really good. better than Gel-O. ha.
In the first day, me and lio went to buy items for soup of the day then we went to deliver it all the way to harbourfront to joel.. -.- like really retarded.. we could not go in the afternoon because i had house blessing in the night. so we reached there in the night at around 11.
Next day, had PAW and word n the morning by Aunt Erika. Was really good. then laster in the afternoon, had amazing race! i swear the teams that were at our station suffered mad man.. haha then alter in the night, we had worship workshop by none other than my team 2's leader, Joshua! (: Was really good and i bet it helped the campers learn more about worship.
The following day, there was PAW and word by aunt erika again and after that had missing in the afternoon. me nad lio were like scrambling around sentosa like nuts.
then in the night had PAW extended! was pretty good and then had games after that and everyone slept around 2-3 am.
The next day, had water bombs. haha was realyl fun and tiring but was a great way to end the camp. then after that everyone had lunch at harbourfront and some of the campers and leaders went to watch the benchwarmers. but i didn't go though. Mom didn't allow. but i don't regret. (:
Some of the leaders were crazy about this hardgay thing which was super lame. i dunno what they see in it but they must probably wanted to act gay. =P well, what can i say? Got God? (:
JuL scribbled at 4.21PM. My borther is going on a journey i want to buy him some turbans to bring him good fortune.