Thursday, October 30, 2008
-Thursday, October 30, 2008
As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears
i thought he wasnt there, but he was. always there, i just had to focus on his love for me, and allow him to enter my life once again. hahaha god's good (:
blah, i think i ate something wrong ytd, had diarrhoea last night and this morning. not to mention a slight fever. but a good 1 hour rest and focusing on his love for me did the trick. ha. damn he loves me so much. anyway, i've relocated my room to the music room. for those of you who've been to my place before, yea, you get the drift (: school's really slack. i enter lectures, i look at the stuff the teacher teaches, and i realize its not so difficult. just gonna sit your ass down on the LT chair, listen, and thats all.
turn your eyes upon jesus.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
-Wednesday, October 29, 2008
and god's been so faithful. that he doesnt judge me by my works. i've screwed up lately, felt insecure, but god came back, fresh new set of revelations. damn! i feel so alive in him!
jesus loves me, this i know. i know! i know! i know! (insert tongues here) hahaha.
school's slack. thank you lord.
-Wednesday, October 29, 2008
school's been really fun. though there's all the bullshit lessons, there's still the people. hahah the girls, danny, simon, justin (rokoboy). such an enjoyment to be with them. finally a group of friends outside politicity. sentosa anyone ?
oh yea, mariah carey and nelly furtado are so damn hot man. girls, please dont call us guys perverts ! i'm SOO DAMN SURE you girls dont swoon and fantasize over brad pitt, jonas brothers, zack efron, or christopher lee, or whoever you guys may eyecandy. hahaha (: OH YES. MANEATER IS A FANTASTIC SONG. so is love lockdown. though i think stronger is much better.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
-Tuesday, October 28, 2008
stoned at home pretty much the whole day. its an uneventful day, and as the public holiday draws to a close, i ask myself how the heck did so much shit happen when i didnt even take 1 step out of the house. makes me realize how much misunderstanding technology creates, and familiarity breeding contempt.
with the day being uneventful, i ask myself, "the shit's hit the fan. what're you gonna do, julian ?"
and i say, " dunno, heck it." thats what i'm gonna do, heck it.
is it time for me to move out ? is this situation a sign ? maybe. i'm gonna miss people. just a few, but they're the only ones here who really matter. i've done what i could lord. but if my hometown rejects me, there's gentiles who need the word. so many lord. to hear the true meaning. has the shit hit the fan yet, lord?
Sunday, October 26, 2008
-Sunday, October 26, 2008
is it time to move?
time for a change of surroundings? maybe a place better to feed on his word. i'm so drained from drawing water for others, and not drinking myself. i need to drink. drink. drink.
to move, or not to move.
dare me to move.
p.s i met a really hot girl/woman/lady (choose the word that most suits you) today. i'm going mad. dont mind me.
Friday, October 24, 2008
-Friday, October 24, 2008
i've been feeling kinda tired, discouraged, forsaken. maybe its just school, and lack of time spent with god. so many politics, so many things to do. only his love can save me.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
-Thursday, October 23, 2008
hello all. i'd like to share with you guys this video. the sickest video i've ever watched in my life i think. owns david blaine and criss angel hands down man wtheck
Monday, October 20, 2008
-Monday, October 20, 2008
school's started. its been alright. but i've been troubled lately about school, you know the friends, influences, the long lessons, sigh totally bullshit. but i guess i still gotta go through this phase of life known as 'tertiary education' or you go straight to NS. and without a 'tertiary education' cert, you cant go into the slack units, and end up doing all the saikang. oh well.
but i'm telling myself everyday, that this sem is gonna be slack as hell, cause jesus walked the hard road, took on the hard life, that we might have it easy. i feel troubled, i dont really know exactly why, but he's my strong tower, my comfort, my daddy, my girlfriend, and all i ever need.
i'm sure gonna miss the holidays, jsut slacking at home and having personal time with god. nothing to worry about, just do what you want. oh well.
but i'm gonna give my best. because he gave his life for me, the best gift he could ever give me. i dont want to give anything less than the best, cause jesus sure didnt come down the cross after feeling the pain from the nails. he could have, and let the whole earth die, but he didnt.
this term is gonna be the best, cause jesus is gonna be there with me. amen. i proclaim that in my life. i need some feeding. i'm getting hungry. more word. rah.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
-Wednesday, October 15, 2008
damn. i'm really longing to go overseas, stay in a comfortable hotel, and head down to an auditorium for a conference on god's love. 3-4 days just immersing and listening to how good he is. makes me feel damn good. probably the next hillsong conference i guess. ha.
Luke 4:8 - Jesus answered, "It is written: Woship the Lord your God and serve him only."
Jesus quoting this verse against against satan from Deuteronomy 6:13. for those of you who have bibles by zondervan like mine, the leather coer one, there's a reference after luke 4:8. andi ts deut 6:13.
Deut 6:13 - Fear the Lord your God, serve him only and take your oaths in his name.
People are always saying, "oh we need to fear the Lord, there's space in the church for the FEARRRR of the lord." Would you like to know what Jesus defined fear as? he defined it as WORSHIP. of course there's space for the fear in the church. but fear as worship! not you being scared of Jesus, always scared that evertime you sin, when you go to heaven, a tape of your whole life will be shown in front of all heaven, and every sin you committed, God will throw a thunderbolt at you, or whatsoever means of torture. thats not the way God is! if he were like that, dang i wouldnt want to go to heaven man. i've sinned so many countless times, i'll be fried by his thunderbolt.
How can we love and worship someone whom we fear, or are scared of? doesnt make sense. if you hate spiders and cockroaches, would you go over and pat them, and play with them? of course not! lets use our brains that god gave us, dont let it go to waste.
Instead, let us live our lives in worship with a spirit of thanksgiving, that God gave his son, Christ, for us. That through Christ, we can stand boldly before God, not fearful, because we're perfect in God's eyes. For as God sees Jesus, so does he see you in this world. Holy, sinless, blameless, righteous. thats the way he sees us!
hope yuu guys have been blessed. (:
Monday, October 13, 2008
-Monday, October 13, 2008
if you cant love a perfect god, you'll never be able to love an imprefect woman.
something so true and hard hitting. i've been thinking alot about going into another relationship. is it worth my time? is it worth my effort and money? i think so. but is it meant to be? he's shown me many signs, but i'm still doubtful.
Supposed to head for night cycling down on friday night after cell with lionel and his friends at ECP. but the shop closed. the auntie was being mean. oh well. but all the same, slacked around and got to know lionel's friends. and they're a pretty nice bunch. bunch of slackers, love to talk cock. my kind of people lol. hard to find friends who like to sit down, probably a jug or 2 of beer, and just talk. lucky there's lionel.
last week of holidays, and lionel's heading back to school. so i guess its gonna be pretty boring this week. but i trust god, that it wont be, cause with him things are gonna be alright. happy dude.
be blessed (:
EDIT: hahaha i got this quote. funny.
Behind every successful man is a woman. And behind every woman is a man checking our her ass. lol.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
-Thursday, October 09, 2008
its been a good week, just came back from my class chalet. not bad, but it could ahve been much more fun. but it was good to see many people again heh.
The past few days, it was pretty tough for me to experience God's love. i lost 10 bucks in the chalet, and so did my friend KC. the thought just pisses me off, that one of our friends would steal from us. we dont know who it is, but it just sucks, if your friends would even resort to steal from you. so difficult, cause i kept dwelling on my money lost. i kept telling myself ' dont focus on the money. focus on jesus.' so yea, didnt find my money, but i trust in God that he'll shower with more financial blessings. and its so tough sometimes, and we ask " how do i know Jesus loves me ?" because the bible says so. when you dont feel his love, dont lose hope in it. because Jesus still gave his life for me, like i was the only one on earth. thank you jesus.
2 Cor 3:7-8 Now if the ministry of death, which was engraved on stone, came with glory, so that the Israelites could not look steadily at the face of Moses because of its glory, fading though it was, will not the ministry of the Spirit be even more glorious?
stated so clearly in our faces, that the law is the ministry of death, why do we keep choosing to follow it? i've been taught all my life, to follow the 10 commandments. sure if we follow the law it'll bring about holiness, but through GRACE, believing in Jesus that he's your saviour, the way God looks at us is the same way he looks at Jesus. Holy and righteous, someone who has kept all the 10 commandments. Through grace, God sees you as you've followed all the 10 commandments, and is a holy man. so damn straightforward, and i cant believe people still want to follow law. you cant do both! law or grace. choose. you choose both, you become lukewarm, and god will spit you out.
Let he who has ears, let him hear.
Let he who has eyes, let him see.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
-Tuesday, October 07, 2008
headed down to town today for farewell dinner with lionel and aj tim. went to brotzeit at raffles city. yea its a german restaurant, soo for all of you who didnt know, Oktoberfest Bier is in town! head on down to try!. there's happy hours, with cheapest being before 5 pm. anyway, for you guys who also didnt know, Oktoberfest is a festival, which takes place in october, like duh, and its like a festival where germans party on beer and bratwursts, which are huge fat sausages. so i know many of us cant afford to go germany, so why not invest a little more cash and head down to brotzeit. fantastic sausages, best bratwursts i've tasted in my life, and the beer is needless to say. pure german beer, i had a munich beer for myself, and lionel had some funny beer, and followed by another radler, german beer mixed with sprite together with aj. couldnt take another one. kinda got numb with the beer taste. heh. pictures will be up soon. but overall nice fellowship. sad to see aj tim go, but i might be heading over to jakarta to see them once they've settled down, so its alright.
class chalet from tmr till thursday. haha hope it'll be fun. and probably cycling session with lionel and his mates on friday. jam-packed week. thank you lord, for filling it with activities.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
-Sunday, October 05, 2008
people have made christianity into something so technical, till we've really really forgotten what is about. its all abotu Jesus. Christ. without him, there's no such thing called christianity man. we think its all about doing this, doing that, obeying this law, obeying that law, all whatever else you wanna do. its not the doing thats wrong. its just that we shouldnt be focused on doing these things, but instead be focused on Jesus. our lives should be revolved around Him, our saver, or maker, our overcomer. Lets stop being a martha, focusing on everything there is to do, except the thing that matters most, and in the end blame Jesus and everyone except yourself. There's only one thing needful, to sit at Jesus' feet and rest in him. The bible is so straightforward, and i wonder why some people are just so ignorant and blind to it. Its all about Jesus. Is our focus on him ? Cause christian living is all about him. neverabout us, never about our works. just jesus.
Let he who has eyes, let him see.
Let he who has ears, let him hear.
hope you've been blessed.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
-Thursday, October 02, 2008
waking up every morning, to 'this is how we overcome'.
brushing my teeth, while dancing in my room to the song. sure, i cant dance for nuts, but god doesnt care! hahaha. i know its kinda weird, like peope say, ' oh you cant dance in the house of god. embarrassing.' i believe i can dance anywhere i want! its my way of rejoicing and thanking him for what he did for me !
he's how we overcome. in all we do, trials, troubles, problems, in him, through him, its being overcomed.
many people think they have to do to get what they want, or do to overcome problems, but they dont realize its already been overcomed. sad, that their effort is useless.
he's my peace. thank you daddy .