promise
nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to seperate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Rom 839
Friday, October 19, 2007
-Friday, October 19, 2007
its coming so close to o levels, i'm now likecurrently in a state of in between shock and depression. i've been mugging the hardest i ever did in my 4 years, doing as much as i can, and somehow i just cant seem to cover everything, and i'm just not sure bout my future.
i've gone to changi airport for the past few days, and yea studied mainly iwht txy huat and alicia, my new found tuition friend lol. yea i've been exploring around the airport during breaks. sometimes i get so darn stressed, and i just relaly wanna cry and just run away. i go to the airport, i look from the viewing mall the transit part and the part after the guy checks your passport, where they sell the duty-free stuff and all. i'll get really depressed cause i've really wanted to go there, especially during this period, to just go there, where no one's gonna take me back to reality, where its 24 hours always, and whether rain or shine, reality wont ever catch up with me, and maybe finally leave on a plane. sometimes i'll just get really sad and all, i've been praying hard too, but its hard to communicate and trust someone full heartedly and cast all your troubles on someone whom you cant see.
i really need this time to pass by quickly, and i just really wanna get a plane ticket and fly to paris. i really need freedom. i believe i can fly. someday. after o's first palce i'll go is to find a friend, head down to raffles area, and just slack, then chiong com for a few days. i'm really in my slums now. i'm just praying hard that god will reward me with the results i deserve. i really need him to pull me through.
and he's leaving on a jetplane, never coming back.
JuL scribbled at 11.22PM. where dreams become reality, - airport.