Thursday, August 31, 2006
-Thursday, August 31, 2006
its been a bad week. i don't wanna talk about the good things. i'm screwing up my life. yea. ok. today will be the last day i'm gonna be online. i'm gonna start serious studying.yea.
from today, 31 August.
-no more using of the computer until the 13th of October. 43 days.
-to save at least 20 a week.
-do studying of 2 hours at least everyday.
-play at least 1 hour of guitar everyday.
-finish up classical gas.
-do QT everyday.
yea thats about it. bye people. time for serious mugging. if u wanna go out and mug, gimme a call at 81287597.
JuL scribbled at
-Thursday, August 31, 2006
its been a bad week. i don't wanna talk about the good things. i'm screwing up my life. yea. ok. today will be the last day i'm gonna be online. i'm gonna start serious studying.yea.
from today, 31 August.
-no more using of the computer until the 13th of October. 43 days.
-to save at least 20 a week.
-do studying of 2 hours at least everyday.
-play at least 1 hour of guitar everyday.
-finish up classical gas.
-do QT everyday.
yea thats about it. bye people. time for serious mugging. if u wanna go out and mug, gimme a call at 81287597.
JuL scribbled a
-Thursday, August 31, 2006
its been a bad week. i don't wanna talk about the good things. i'm screwing up my life. yea. ok. today will be the last day i'm gonna be online. i'm gonna start serious studying.yea.
from today, 31 August.
-no more using of the computer until the 13th of October. 43 days.
-to save at least 20 a week.
-do studying of 2 hours at least everyday.
-play at least 1 hour of guitar everyday.
-finish up classical gas.
-do QT everyday.
yea thats about it. bye people. time for serious mugging. if u wanna go out and mug, gimme a call at 81287597.
JuL
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
-Tuesday, August 29, 2006
i've started studying. gonna stop using the com soon. must study. i need someone to study with. i can't study by myself. really irritating.ok i gotta go study. hai.
JuL scribbled at 8.55PM. freedom.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
-Sunday, August 27, 2006
its roughly more than a month to exams. i really don't wanna retain. so i guess its time i picked up my books. yea. holidays are 1 more week. my progress report is gonna suck bad. so i guess i'm gonna be screwed. the past week's been bad. boring, and tired. yea. i still can't find my song so that kinda pisses me off. yea. today, played for main. gnk aaniversary. yea. was pretty good and its great to see hwo the gnk has grown. then had youth. i guess everyone is really tired today, but i could feel some did not want to worship. was really dicouraged. the fire in these people have died out. father, reignite it. my flame's dying out a bit, but i'm trying to keep it burning. with so many distractions, i realyl need god's help.
JuL scribbled at 6.30PM. crying out for more and more of you.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
-Wednesday, August 23, 2006
its been a while since i blogged. my cough's getting better. thanks everyone for your prayers. yea. i jsut came back fomr a band perf. at taka. yea. fun but i tihnk we screwed it up. but it sounded ok. but i kept losing count of the bars. darn. it drives me nuts. carrying the instruments everything is really tiring and i'm shacked now. yea. shall not blog much. been thinking bout lots of stuff and the holidays are coming. that means more rest but also the upcoming EOYs. i just hope i don't retain. i passed chem. so i'm pretty happy. history and SS are goners. geog i think i can make it. maths i'm trying hard. physics i dunno man. chinese maybe can. tmr i got 2 freaking tests. so yea. i wrote a song last week on some piece of paper. and i can't find it. cos i wanna copy it into my journal. so i'm hunting round my room for it. i hope i find it.
JuL scribbled at 11.08PM. timpani ?
Thursday, August 17, 2006
-Thursday, August 17, 2006
i'm suffering form a bad thraot infection which has led to bad cough and runny nose and made my asthma come back. its difficult coping with life and my throat hurts like crazy. i want to clear it man. damn pain.. i'm afraid of sleeping cos i know when i waker up my nose will be clogged and my thraot will hurt like mad. dang it. and i'm really tired nowadays.lord please come and heal me. i'm not sure if this is something from the devil and he's trying to use this to draw me away fom god but i will still love god and trust in him that he wil heal me. if this is form god to make me stronger and i will be able to use this as a testimony for his name, they so i shall. thanks yuo father, for revealing these things to me, a sinner such as me.
JuL scribbled at. 10.07PM. samba.
Monday, August 14, 2006
-Monday, August 14, 2006
ok. my parents are out for a while. so wlil take this time to blog. yea. here to blog my feelings about UV. yea. it was good. on friday there weren't many of our church people. on saturday, alot of our chuch people came. so that was good. but i had my doubts about some of them who seemed so active during the event. are they really passionate about god or just jumping cos of the atmosphere and cause everyone else is jumping? i thought to myself. i see some of those who were jumping, and in church they look like they're dead or something, just there cos their parents go to the same church. its really sad, these masks these people put on, cos who are they planning to fool? themselves? thats pitiful. i thin kthat we can prasie adn worship god in any circumstance. whether the music is god or mediocre or bad, whether u want to worship god is up to you to decide. its not on hte music. the music is just another way to worship god. hopd everyone thinks about this. well this is what i felt. i was really urged to bring up this point.
JuL scribbled at 8.29PM. nafa.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
-Sunday, August 13, 2006
i went to ultraviolet yesterday too! haha. went there at 3.30 then zec treated me and lio to lerkthai! haha. i love the kankong!! lol then after that queued up till 6.30 when the doors open! haha we were 1st in the queue so obviously we were at the front. lol. i love the whole thing and many more church people came. haha. atmossphere was crazy man. i got a sore throat now. lol
after that i went to the autograph place and then i wanted to get my guitars signed. but the pastors there were liek no guitars please. like so -.- planetshakers wanted to sign my guitar. like they would love to sign my guitar but the pastors don't allow. just because they invited palnetshakers so they think can control planetshakers. hai. the world is unfair..
but then, me and lio didn't give up. when the others went home, we stayed behind and wait for... KRIS GUGLIELMUCCI!! yea he came over to sign my guitar. then also took a pic with me and lio!! ha. i'm so happy. the went for supper after that. haha. then today had church. pastor thomas's word spoke to me. its more of a committment and dedication. he said one part where my most important job now is to study. and no matter how much i hate studying and i jsut want to praise god, my love for him will help me to study! thank you lord.
ah sian. my mom ask me go off blogging. ah sucks man. ok i g2g soon. i'll blog mabout stuff another time.
JuL scribbled at 11.01PM. This anthem we sing.
Friday, August 11, 2006
-Friday, August 11, 2006
i just came back from ultraviolet. ha. tired man. today i came from school and went back home to chagne. but i missed the bus and train so was pissed. but while i was bathing, i told the lord, "i can't worship you with this attitude and this heart and al lthe problems within me. " so then i told god to help me get to expo as quickly as i can. yea. everytihng was pretty smooth. then queueing up time!! hahah. then i had to pass my fren a tix then some guy didn't let me back in. i todl ihm my bag and stuff were already inside but he kept talking about what cutting queue. pleeeeaase man. i was already inside the queue.. -.- so i didn't care, i went through the crowd and went back to lio and the others. then the doors opened behind us!! OMG! haha we were the first to get in and then we booked the 1st row of the pit. haha. before the tihng, ther was some nonsense thing games on football and stuff which delayed the whole event. but the event was well worth waiting for. though mike webber was not on the drums and the keyboardist was not there and mike guglielmucci wasn't playing the bass but he preached, it was still good. his short word really spoke to me and his case when he was young is really similar to mine. planetshakers has proven themselves that they have waht it takes to be one of the top worship teams in Aussieland. haha then i had the team to autograph my cymbals and cd and sticks!! haha. yea. overall was really good. i love planetshakers.i'm going tmr again!! woot!!!
JuL scribbled at 11.44PM. i love planetshakers. julian here! =).
Thursday, August 10, 2006
-Thursday, August 10, 2006
national day's over. yea. tmr 1 day of school then its off to planetshakers!! yea.
seems like everyone is being emo. not saying its wrong to be emo. but whats wrong with someone else being emo? emo then emo lor. god gave us emotions, so its not a sin to be emo. maybe everyone should just learn to get along better. stop all this nonsense and just be focused on god. rumours flying here flying there. but end of the day no one really cares. but friendships are still spoiled. i don't take sides, and i guess everyone should stop saying i'm biased or what. cos i'm not. thats all i gotta say.
Father take all of me. heal WRPF oh father. this is my deepest request and prayer.
JuL scribbled at 8.11PM.Take it all.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
-Tuesday, August 08, 2006
here goes nothing.Spiritual discernment is crucial. As God gives us spiritual eyes, we'll see things correctly. For example, in the church, we'll see one another in the proper light as brothers and sisters in Christ. Instead of focusing on one another's faults and shortcomings, we'll be set to help each other overcome any weaknesses. We'll help through supportive prayer and by showing love and kindness to one another. Spiritual discernment will open up our awareness of the spirit realm. What is the spirit realm? It is a realm made up of two kingdoms, one of darkness and one of light. While God rules the kingdom of light, Satan is master over the kingdom of darkness. We can do mighty things for God, as we take the enemy's strongholds and bring them down through prayer and fasting.
oh, before i start ranting my thoughts..
i thought i'd say sorry first.
what for? heh. for offending you by saying what i truely think.
(as always)
if the sorry is meant for you, you'll know.
i feel all !!! argh
i could just scream my lungs out now.
get to know me better.i know, i promised not to get angry. but, what the crap la.
this is the craziest retardedest dumbest phase in my life i've ever experienced. it just seems so absurb. i don't even know why i think the thoughts i think. so i'm thinking about my thinking. which never seems to end and just keeps going in a circle. you don't like it when i tell the truth, thinking that i'm constantly lying. you don't like me to be sad and would say,"so emo". you don't like me to be happy, saying,"always talk to them one". you don't like me to have any friends, going roung behind my back uttering words that stab. you don't like it when i talk, saying,"whole day black face". you don't like it when i don't talk and would say, "you're so dao". you don't like anything i do and always have something bad to say. now, what exactly will please you? would you care to enlighten me so i could be your perfect little angel?
i'd still love you all, (cos God first loved me)and theres nothing you can do about it.pour a bucket of icy water over me.
drag me out from my perfect lala land.
its about time i start moving on and realise that its a harsh, cruel world and we live in. no longer the flowery, lovey dovey world where everyone is smiling at each other and teachers give students lollipops to suck on during lessons.
all that bunch of nursery lies.
-james 1:19-
assure me i'm doing the right thing by being nice.(though i'm not exactly being really nice here.)
you're all no more than a bunch of quacked matchmakers.
i quit. i'm leaving this madhouse.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
-Sunday, August 06, 2006
the week's been ok. been playing more soccer and stuff. ytd had the eastern cell. went to lionel's house at like 7.45. and ther was only, me, my brother, lionel, darryl and zeph and nat. so i thought wah so little people so me and lio went to walk. then still no people came so we were feeling very discouraged but then we trusted god and then more people came. so i nthe end, we had like 10-11 people. and i felt it wasn't bad. so yea. then today, i mean ytd. yea, JUST NOW. yea tahts it. hah. went to church for a jam from 9-11 AM. was pretty good then went to have lunch and then cut botak! with lio, joel nad marucs. haha. pretty ok. 1st time botak. wouldn't hurt. then went for FESTIVAL OF PRAISE!! yea. waited outside the indoor stadium from 3.30 to 5.30 for the gates to open then we went in. haha. the CCC and Don Moen were really good. halfway through the show, matt and joel left for sam chan's birthday. i wasn't really happy aobut it, but i can't judge. thats up togod. but i felt that if you wanna come for fop, then go for the full thing. if you want god to give his full blessings, then you gotta give him your full time for him to bless you. i guess its all a matter of choice. not saying that going for sam chan's birthday was wrong. but if they wanted to go for his birthday, then don't come fop. they just came fop for 1 hour then they left. then the others left at 9pm sam goh, evelyn's friend, evelyn, elaine serene and melisa left to join matt and joel for supper. -.- i felt it was really cuckoo lame but then i can't judge. yea. so i was left to stand all alone there. but at least i knew that nice, marcus and lio were still out there in the crowd. when you're alone, God's always there. but there's also a bunch of people like your family and clsoe friends who will always stand by you.
i didn't really understand the message but the CCC played really well. considering that they have the same number of people on as our youth worship team. but they're not bad. then the finale cam and a short timr of worship by Don Moen again and then a half hour sPriase and worship by the CCC again!! yea. it was the best man. i realyl had fun. even though i was just by myself. but when you're in the presence of god, its just between you and god. to those who left before that like matt, joel, sam goh, serene, evelyn's friend, evelyn, elaine and mel, you guys missed out a lot.FOP comes once in a year and u can have supper anytime. so u guys missed out. it was really good. but yea. sorry to you guys, but yea. choices are made by you. ok its getting late, gotta get to church at 8 tmr. and thats like in 7 hours. sians, i'm gonna be crazy sleepy.
JuL scribbled at 12.53AM. Great is the measure of my father's love. =D