now i think to myself, 'aiya, just finish all the report, can go slack already. go out drink, chill, talk cock. thats what matters.'

but then, in actual fact, there's much more things in life that matter. like your results, which will determine your future whatsoever, your career. thats much more important then this chill relax life that you want now. then the slack and chill activity suddenly seems like not important.

but then, when you really think about it, this life is temporal. and everything here, whatever you cultivate on earth, is gonna fade away, like the morning dew. the money, the qualifications, dont count for anything. and even works for the lord, dont count for anything. and all of a sudden, it seems like everything on this earth, just doesnt matter anymore.

and thank god. because in my results, qualifications, i'm really far off. i'm somewhere beneath there, below all the smart freaks in my class, course etc. but you know what, it doesnt matter. and its not about my works and love for God which matters. its His love, his one obedience at the cross, which matters.

its not about right doing.

its about right believing.

and my heart, inside, shouts for joy, because i know that things of this earth, striving for them, is dumb.

and i love the way pastor mark says it. he's a chinese speaking pastor, but he spoke in place of prince once. got the tape. he said 'we're all here on a tour. in the end, you'll have to go back. so dont go free and easy ! stick with the tour group, you'll never go wrong.'

just amazing. stick with the tour group. the people of grace. stick with the tour guide. Jesus. you'll never go wrong.

it doesnt matter what my results are. it doesnt matter what my qualifications are. it doesnt matter what my standing in life is.

what matters, is where my standing with God is. and man, i know where i am. i'm at the right hand of God, seated, with my