Tuesday, June 30, 2009
-Tuesday, June 30, 2009
life is weird, but somehow good.
now i think to myself, 'aiya, just finish all the report, can go slack already. go out drink, chill, talk cock. thats what matters.'
but then, in actual fact, there's much more things in life that matter. like your results, which will determine your future whatsoever, your career. thats much more important then this chill relax life that you want now. then the slack and chill activity suddenly seems like not important.
but then, when you really think about it, this life is temporal. and everything here, whatever you cultivate on earth, is gonna fade away, like the morning dew. the money, the qualifications, dont count for anything. and even works for the lord, dont count for anything. and all of a sudden, it seems like everything on this earth, just doesnt matter anymore.
and thank god. because in my results, qualifications, i'm really far off. i'm somewhere beneath there, below all the smart freaks in my class, course etc. but you know what, it doesnt matter. and its not about my works and love for God which matters. its His love, his one obedience at the cross, which matters.
its not about right doing.
its about right believing.
and my heart, inside, shouts for joy, because i know that things of this earth, striving for them, is dumb.
and i love the way pastor mark says it. he's a chinese speaking pastor, but he spoke in place of prince once. got the tape. he said 'we're all here on a tour. in the end, you'll have to go back. so dont go free and easy ! stick with the tour group, you'll never go wrong.'
just amazing. stick with the tour group. the people of grace. stick with the tour guide. Jesus. you'll never go wrong.
it doesnt matter what my results are. it doesnt matter what my qualifications are. it doesnt matter what my standing in life is.
what matters, is where my standing with God is. and man, i know where i am. i'm at the right hand of God, seated, with my
LORD.
HEALER.
FRIEND.
PROVIDER.
BANNER.
LOVER.
FORTRESS.
ROCK.
SHIELD.
STRENGTH.
CREATOR.
SERVANT.
PEACE.
SAVIOR.
BEST OF ALL.
MY JESUS.
Monday, June 29, 2009
-Monday, June 29, 2009
i want to preach in youth and adult service! rahhhhhh. :/
god's lean mean preaching machine is ready !
Saturday, June 27, 2009
-Saturday, June 27, 2009
its the weekend ! hoho. its been a really good week once again, and i thank god for the really small things, for friends, for my four day school week, which is just awesome.
went down thursday night to ZEERKAH again. this time it was a large group. there was me, justin, gerald, aizat, danny. and danny's friends came along as well, ying xuan, eugene, amost ans shi sheng. shi sheng's a cool guy man. and really nice too. he opened a bottle of chivas for all of us, and wanted to open another bottle if there wasnt enough. but paiseh alr ah, open one bottle already. then headed home after that, and went for sushi with dione zac and my brother at white sands. good food, but annoyign service. there was this annoying waitress. cao bugger. ask me, i'll tell you about it. lazy to type out everything.
last night, headed down to justin's place with gerald, and bunked over at his place. good lepak session, and of course some dota. heh. fun time. then woke up this morning, went to do project at pearlyn's place, came home, and went out to meet justin and gerald again for dinner. hoho, havent had popeye's in awhile.
good week. next week, will be even better.
marcus : hello marcus. yea where sin abounds, grace super abounds. i think we shouldnt be too bothered by sins in other people's lives. we juts preach the forgiveness of sins, people's lives will change. conscious sinning or unconscious sinning, still sin. but god's grace forgives all sins. and it is the power unto salvation for all who believe. amen. (:
Thursday, June 25, 2009
-Thursday, June 25, 2009
good times ! things are just getting better and better. because the word of god says that the path of the righteous will only get brighter and brighter amen. (:
justin's birthday last thursday, and the pictures are here ! i had a really good time, awesome friends, awesome company. sorry danny ! that you couldnt be there :/ going again tomorrow ! with justin, gerald, aizat, hopefully danny, and yingxuan maybe ? heh. :)
gerald, justin and me ! :D
the people who went! hadi and fey's not in the picture :/ heh sean got high damn fast. loolol. yea he's the half naked guy. ahahaha.
hahaha another picture of us, fey went to find his friend.
half of sean, justin, me and mujia. lolol ! justin was high by then alr . lol. awesome face man.
okay man, rest of the pictures are online on facebook. i'm lazy to go and post up.
whew. assignments are all coming in a chunk man. frekaing alot, and its difficult to get into the momentum to startm moreso cause its the first week of school. i'm still in holiday mood. there's APEL, airfield systems, airport systems assignment as well as project. my group totally did the airport systems project wrong, so gotta redo, so kinda sian. but something really cheered me up, and reminded me god's sovereign over my life:
i came home, went on facebook and saw this ! mannnn. when i saw pearlyn type that, i know, that somehow, she had a revelation she was saved by grace ! awesomeee. pearlyn, you'll be blessed. definitely. His grace is enough to take my life from eternity in hell to eternity in heaven. its more than enough to bring me through all these projects and assignments.
i kept proclaiming its the dektos year of the lord these few weeks, that this year will be the year of free favors and salvation which will profusely aobund in my life. and guess what ! though my phone which i sat on, the screen cracked, my contacts are stuck inside, though the phone couldnt be repaired, i proclaimed that it was a multiplier for god's blessings over my life. and i managed to recover my contacts ! i used nokia pc suite to store onto my pc, then transferred it to another nokia phone, then in to my sim card. GOD IS GOOD. :D and my cracked phone, in original condition, can be traded in for 200 bucks, but i called up this guy, and he's offering me 160 for my cracked phone ! WOOOO. god is goood ! he always provides ! GOD IS FAITHFUL, TIME AND AGAIN.
where sin abounds,
grace huperperisseuō. - SUPER ABOUNDS, EXCEEDING. AMEN.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
-Tuesday, June 23, 2009
the weekend's pretty good :)
school's started. slack, boring, but its my kinda thing (:
after school, went down with danny to meet ying xuan for a last minute steamboat thing. gerald and justin came along later to join us. good company, but no photos, we didnt take any. but it was good fun, and i managed to eat my steamboat ! yeaaaa (((:
there's still airfield shit due on thursday. but after that, WOOOO. ZIRCAAA. :)
hoho. imma happy boy. this year is indeed ! the dektos year of the lord. hoho.
when i got down at pasir ris today, going down the escalator, the JCDecaux board was displaying an ad.
"There is a calmness to a life lived in gratitude, a silent joy."
Ralph H. Blum
i then had sort of a conversation with God. and you know, even through such a quote, God can reveal himself so strongly.
have we lost the gratitude ! the gratitude we should have for the cross. and we need to live a life full of thanksgiving, for the one sacrifice at calvary, because a constant revelation and remembrance of the cross allows God's blessings to flow in our lives. Jesus lived a life of thanksgiving, just like when he multiplied the food to feed the 5000, he said thank you to the lord. and that thanksgiving, allowed the miracle to manifest !
and through that gratitude, grateful for the cross, we live a life of calmness, also known as peace. and this peace, resting in that the cross has covered us, that only blessings shall befall us. andi ts a silent joy, to know that God's done it all for us, and we dont need to serve, we dont need to moderate our behavoir to get god's blessings. God's blessings flow apart from our performance. amen.
thank you for the cross, lord jesus.
d: no worries. :)
Friday, June 19, 2009
-Friday, June 19, 2009
love always perseveres. (nomatterwhatthecost)
woooo. last night was pretty good. sorry ah justin, but its alright. always next time. :) apologies for all the misery you went through lol.
HAPPY 18TH DUDE. legal to smoke, club, drink. lol. at long long last. ahahah finally another member to add to the above 18 group. next time we go again yea, with danny and xinhui. :) and i know you read my blog. ahahaha. i absolutely love and miss our lepak sessions. awesome shit. can talk cock, also can serious. "AH TEE HEE HEE HEE".
really, its the unexpected people that make the best friends. those who'll accomodate, those who'll put others before themselves, and choose to see the best in others, not the flaws.
yooo dude. get well soon man. we havent hung out in awhile. take care man. you'll be in my prayers. :)
AND SO ENDS AN AWESOME WEEK. before school starts, and politics start all over and shit. lol. not to mention 4 assignments due next week. tough, but i'll pull through.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
-Thursday, June 18, 2009
more than a conqueror,
GOD IS GOOD. unfairly good ! so good, that i can never ever make it fair.
the stayover was good, i thank god :)
if you guys read my previous post below, you will know that i'm looking for Lord of All by Hillsong London. i was trying to download the song the past few days, but couldnt find it anywhere. and hillsong london isnt as popular as the aussie one, so lesser people own the disc. after the stayover ytd, i headed over to pearlyn's place to do project at around 11. thank god we were able to finish it. i was just walking around in the living room, and that was when i saw two music CDs. i decided not to be nosey and take a look, but i got bored walking around after awhile, and when i came back to that same spot, i took a look at the CDs. i saw the back were some song titles and all. then i turned to the front, and WOOOOO. I FOUND THE CD! JESUS IS BY HILLSONG LONDON ! i was just in shock, and i ran over to pearlyn sharing my excitement. heh i ripped the songs, and used simon's com to send over to my com, where zac and eugene was on it back at my place.
JESUS IS.
THANK YOU NU-ER. <3
man ! God is good ! i was contemplating buying the CD the next time i was at rock bookstore. i had been trying to download the album the past few days, and finally got it ! wooooo. it truly, truly is, the dektos year of the Lord, where salvation and FREE favors will profusely abound in my life ! AMEN. i love the word FREE ! FREE. NO STRINGS ATTACHED. thats how good our god is. amennnn.
after that, went home, stoned around for a bit, then zac went home, left me and eugene. we were to elias and eat. lol we were a little too ambitious so we ordered a medium sized dish from the zhi char stall for each of us. lol the plate's like for two people to eat. LOL. the serving is huge man. i finished mine, but eugene died halfway. ahahaha. good chat, he never ever fails to make me laugh. and there's a serious side to him too. one of the people with the best character and personality i've ever seen. he's just been misunderstood too many times. sure, he'll own you if you offend him, but man, he's really good to his friends. he's the only guy, who has ever come to my house, and volunteered to help me do the dishes. amazing.
i used to think those from good schools, where the people are more cultured, are better friends. i used to think that super holy people had good character. i used to think that those people who seem nice, have good character.
but i was wrong.
people from good schools, most of them, not all, however cultured they are, turn into snobs, who mix with others of their calibre, and shun those who arent as smart as them, or arent as rich, or on a different social level. crap character. i'm not against people from good schools. alex is from a good school. he hasnt got crap character. lol. dont pass a judgement on me so fast :) i said most.
super holy people ? you can act holy, but hey, i've got a knowledge that i'm MADE holy by the cross. i dont need to act holy, i dont need to serve crazy in church to prove i'm holy. there's nothing to prove. the only proof is the bible. i bet some of you are thinking "sure not. dont anyhow say lah. anyhow make your own assumptions." LOL. come lah, spirit of unbelief. i give you the reference. hebrews 10:10
10And by that will, we have been made holy through the sacrifice of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.
happy now ? :)
people who seem nice. everyone can be nice. but when the rubber meats the road, when a situation crops up, when misunderstandings happen, when mountains or problems, or a small tiff or disagreement comes up, cant show love. they find it difficult. or more rather, they choose not to show love. and only the love of Christ, can change you inside out. cause when the rubber meats the road, its not what you did in the past. its not whether you were nice, kind and loving in the past. its whether you can be now.
after that headed home. got boreed, so decided to crash justin's place. ahahah he's got a pretty nice and decent house. simple :) went out to salck for a bit, get a drink cause we were thristy, talked about stuff, then headed back. dota-ed till 5. LOL.
okay. its a weird timing. 4 pm in the afternoon. going out for a dinner with mabel and a few others, followed by justin's birthday later :) i proclaim! that tonight will be good, despite the circumstances. wooooo. i'm truly, truly blessed. though i falter, grace is still, for the undeserving. and NO ONE. can ever change grace to being only for the undeserving. because the deserving dont need Jesus. and no one can ever change grace, because they didnt die for my sins, and because, this is the way the kingdom operates. like it or not. i'm of this kingdom. love me, hate me, its okay. i'm still of this kingdom. God still loves me. :) hate me, its okay. you're missing out on the opportunity to spend time with the one who Jesus loves. (((:
god is good, all the time.
all the time, god is good.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
-Wednesday, June 17, 2009
woooo. cell members are over at my place. zac, danny and eugene. great time, btu they're all knocked out now. just finished a game of doat with justin gerald and aizat.
went for the cerebral palsy event today at SYFC. i was in food and log comm, so i didnt get to interact much with the kids, though i wanted to. but its great, to see them smile, and whatever they're going through, i know that deep down in their hearts, they know someone cares for them. and even if they dont, the reality is that someone does. the ams people do. Jesus does.
kids have that spirit of just taking whatever's given, never doubting whatsoever. and its a spirit, that god wants us to have. a chid-like faith !
i proclaimed a prayer over them today. that they'll have the mind of christ. and i believed an spoke it, and thus i claim jeremiah 1:12, and because of that, Hebrews 11:1 comes to past. mmmmm. faith is powerful. and if even faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains, then man, the god kind of faith in me and you, which was a gift through the cross, is damn powerful. and if we cant move mountains with our faith, then hey, in essence, our faith is even smaller than a tiny mustard seed.
okay, its getting late. there's justin's birthday this thursday, project meeting tmr, cell on friday, not sure wahts to come over the weekend, but its gonna be good. cause i have faith that it'll be a good week. AMEN.
P.S oh yes, does anyone have Lord of All by Hillsong London ? kindly contact me at saithelord@hotmail.com
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
-Tuesday, June 16, 2009
today was a pretty good day :0 went for prawn mee with egene, dione and zac. great fun, and good times. after that headed to tamp, walked around, dione bought a coffee, then the four of us went to l4d LOL. waste of money man. heh
after that headed down to chinatown to meet barny, before having a meal at manhattan fish market. good dinner, i thank god. and then, the whole day today, i was thinking of going down to clarke quay probably this week again to chill. God knew my desire, and me and barny headed down to brewerkz at clarke quay, just beside iguanas. and i didnt even ask to go drink. mann. god's good. had a jagabomb and a martell. i paid for the martell though. pricey. it cost twice as much as the other drinks. cost 20 bucks. so i'm left with 65 for the next 3 days. but this week's gonna turn out fine :) havent started on assignments, but i'll do fine :)
this year, is indeed, the dektos year of the lord. where salvation and free favors will profusely abound in my life. amen. i proclaim it, he fulfills it. whoooo. what a friend, we have in Jesus.
and grace, is for the undeserving. the guys who screw up the most. because, where sin abounds, grace super abounds. where i fail, where i fall, there's so much more grace clothing me, clothing my circumstnace, my condition, that any bad, will be a multiplier of god's goodness over my life. and the kid who Jesus loves, says Amen. :)
Monday, June 15, 2009
-Monday, June 15, 2009
super abounding.
whoooo. it was a good night at rebel and zirca. met up with danny's friends, eugene, yin xuan( is this how i spell it ?) and brian, and met up with yinxuan's friends as well. ahhh cant remember their names lol. but guess what ! i'm youngest of the lot. :/ they're all around danny's age. 20 i think. so yea. but they're really nice people. you really get to see people from other walks of life. heh all the three girls were pretty hot man. lol. too bad they're older. booooo. not that i mind older girls, but you know, they way they view you cause you're younger, and a guy, doesnt really work to my advantage. ahahaha. and compared to danny and the rest, the other guys seem more.. appealing. ha !
sorry for the lack of pictures. i dont have a camera, and my phonei snt good enough to take quality pictures in dark places. but i had fun. didnt drink much though. sober half the time lol. dance lor. not bad, i started out damn paiseh. then after awhile just relax, get more familiar iwth people, then i loosened up. heh. justin's birthday this week ! mannn, cant wait. hoho. we left around 4.45. shared a cab home with eugene, danny and brian. hoho reached home around 5.40. slept for an hour, before getting up and heading for service.. wah, thank god i could stay awake during service. today's message was just so awesome, touched my life. it really just helped me to see how god's kingdom operates. and how he moulds us.
i will GLORY in my infirmities, for where i am weak, He is strong. and His strength is perfect. perfect enough to empower me to overcome the world. and world doesnt mean the world of spiritaul warfare only, but the WORLD ! its the world which revolves, its the world i live in. every small little thing about my life, God cares enough.
where sin abounds,
GRACE ! SUPER ABOUNDS.
and the word 'abounds' for grace, is different from the one that refers to sin. when it says grace super abounds,
the word 'abounds' is actually huperperisseuō. and it means super abounds, exceeding !
god's grace exceeds every measure of my life, god's grace exceeds every understanding of how much grace i have in my life, even when i sin.
and thats the grace my Jesus came to give, and guess what, He came to be your Jesus too.
parents are out of town for 4 days. they're headed up to KL. so yea, gonna be around alone for 4 days. bunk over anyone ? or we could go out late and chill whatsoever heh.
mannn, i'm empowered ! grace will huperperisseuō in my life ! AMEN.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
-Saturday, June 13, 2009
whew. its been a great week. thank you lord. i proclaim next week will be even better ! amen :)
cell outing on thursday was pretty good. i enjoyed myself :) and there's pretty good beef noodles at amg mo kio. the mall there. whatever its called lol.
speaking of food, i've got craving to go eat good food next week ! mainly (not in order): prawn mee, mutton soup at bedok, beef noodles at lagoon, claypot at geylang, mee hoon kweh at bedok, block 85 food and so much more. AHHH. sometimes i'm proud to be in singapore. (:
aiya. i say one more time lah.
hello everyone. i'm not together with dione. so please, kindly stop assuming. we're close, thats between us. but we're not together. we have common beliefs, love good food, love to stone, slack. thats all. thank you for understanding. it'll be the last time i'm saying this. and dont say i'm snatching her away from you or whatsoever. not targeting anyone. just in general. you guys dont put in as much effort to keep in close contact with her, thats not my fault. thats between both of you. thats not my problem. but my problem is when you drag me in, and say i'm snatching her away. me and her are just friends, so technically, you and me are of equal priority. so dont say i'm snatching her away. you want to talk to her, just talk to her, or ask her out to play or whatever. lol. and so yes, thank you for understanding. if you have a problem, come look for me. my contact details :
msn : saithelord@hotmail.com
okay done. hope i made that clear. lol. dont be dumb and imature guys. just because you guys dont spend time with her, doesnt mean i'm snatching her away. thank you :)
hoho, i'm heading down to rebel later with danny moon and his friends. and one of his friends said i was handsome LOL. yay ! :D ahahahaa.
and i gotta wake up at 6.30 tmr. hoho gg !
Thursday, June 11, 2009
-Thursday, June 11, 2009
the undeserving.
EAST YOUTH. <33>
"not i, but the grace of god, which has caused me to labour more abundantly, than they all."
grace is for the most undeserving. the guy whom the world world is against. the guy whom you'll least expect. because the first will be the last, and the last will be the first.
21 So that servant came and reported these things to his master. Then the master of the house, being angry, said to his servant, ‘Go out quickly into the streets and lanes of the city, and bring in here the poor and the maimed and the lame and the blind.’
luke 14:21
grace, for the undeserving. amen. went for prawn mee again today with dione, zac and jared. great fun, great time. :) i thank god. ((:
tmr's marina barrage with youth cell. not east youth. sunday cell one. hohoho. FUN TIME. WOOOO. assignments, projects can wait. seek first the kingdom of god. everything else will fall into place. i believe so. amen !
bcm sent me a message today, while on the bus home. it was a message that really warmed my heart, made me feel so thankful, and you know, its great to be able to touch a person's life. its great. we believe the same stuff, we love food, we look to stone, talk cock. and tmr's barrage will be another opportunity. god, i thank you so much. BCM, YOU ROCK. (:(:(:(:
bcm, i just wanna say, its been a great few months knowing you. and i thank god, you're receptive to the true gospel. i really salute you, when you make the effort to travel down just to have prawn mee. i'm thankful, for the small little things, when you make the effort to wait for me to go have fish soup,
when you're sibei on,always bunking over to playing mahjong,
when you make the effort to always meet me on time before going for 1st service.
for our short tauhuay breaks before cell.
most of all, i'm thankful that deep inside you, there's a silent but raging fire, to learn more about your savior, and mine as well.
i'm so, so, so damn blessed.
despite my failings,
he still blesses me. man.
where sin abounds,
grace, super abounds.
without you god, i'm nothing.
with you, i'm everything you want me to be. amen.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
-Wednesday, June 10, 2009
its been another good day today ! god knows when i'm bored, and he knows i want to keep myself occupied during the holidays. and he makes plans for me. God is good, all the time. All the time, God is GOOD. he is good, and we need to know, realise, remember, and remind ourselves that He is GOOD. Amen ! :)
headed down to Airport today with Danny, Justin, Gerald and Jinming for.. SAKAE! hahaha i enjoyed myself, and the buffet was pretty cheap. 16 person, inc. GST and service charge. Danny Justin and Gerald came over after that. played a bit of mahjong, and slacked around. good times. ((:
this year will be the year of free favors ! i proclaim ! the dektos year of the lord! :D
just a random thought: people can give words of wisdom, speak like they're damn mature or something, that their thinking is really sensible and all. but when it comes down to the crux of the situation, its these very same people, who dont really understand half of what they talk about, and suddenly you wonder if they're really that mature lol. dumbbbb. dont look at actions. just look at personality. cause true change starts from within.
prawn mee tmr again with zac dione and my brother ! and maybe a meetup with danny and justin and gerald. we'll see. ((:
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
-Tuesday, June 09, 2009
heh my body clock is really messed up right now lol.
its been a whirlwind since term tests ended. went to kbox with danny, mujia, victoria, simon, jinming. pretty good time. :) and chinatown was nice food ! i'm planning to go on a food spree this holiday. jsut blow some cash and enjoy myself :)
ethel's birthday on saturday !
it was a pretty good time, and just to see half-sis enjoy her birthday was just a joy to watch. its always good to see your close friends realise the extent of how much people around them care. ethel ! meet up after your taiwan trip ! :D
joel, me, ethel, alex, justin. <3>
sunday's service was fantastic ! short sermon, but houston brought his point across. and its such a revelation, to see that so often, we come up with excuses, come up with dumb reasons, jsut to do something.
after that it was hanging out at bedok reservoir with danny, justin and gerald (: we met around 10 pm, drank a little, then headed to 85 market for supper, and then continued our night picnic. hoho, what an awesome time. i've been looking forward to hanging out with them ever sicne before term tests. 19th June ! woooo. cant wait.
ahahaha. justin's in red, danny's in green, gerald's in white. and in black, is yours truly :)
pretty good chat with them, talked about matters of the heart, people whom we know, some science here and there and loads of other stuff ahaha. and our convos made me realise, how the thinking of people (not the 3 of them) can be damn screwed up. people can portray two totally opposite personalities, and dont even realise there's something wrong. its.. weird. taught me to watch out for myself. make sure i dont drop to that level.
prawn mee today with dione ! hahaha she's crazy man. she came all the way down from bishan just to have prawn mee. awesome cell member. lol. ANNOUNCEMENT: me and dione are not together ! just to clarify, because people are speculating and assuming and coming up to us. so yes, we're just close cause we have common beliefs, and we both love prawn mee, and we can click. very wrong/weird for a guy and girl to be close friends meh ? close doesnt mean together what. alamak. cmon, the world's got enough of weird people alr. stop adding to the list ! so yes, we dont really need any advice on relationships/counselling/advice on stumbling one another etc. and the list goes on. kinda hard for both of us to relate to, sorry :/
HMM. i'm thinking of heading to chinatown tmr, or bedok, or go for a nice steamboat dinner. anyone free this week ? wanna go EAT ? :D ANYONE ????
Sunday, June 07, 2009
-Sunday, June 07, 2009
i really hate the message of mixture that puts people under bondage.
-Sunday, June 07, 2009
today's been a good day ! EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER ! ended yesterday, i thank god that he brought me through. he's with me, every step of the way. when i'm on the computer, when i'm taking the bus to school, when i'm taking my paper, when i'm studying in the libray, when i'm hanging out with friends, when i'm taking my dump on the "throne", even when i'm sleeping, he and his host of angels, are all surrounding me (; ensuring that my sleep is awesome (: great is He, the one who laid down His life for me.
random : its great that more and more people are coming to realise the true grace message. its juts warm and comforting to know (:
slacked at home today till evening, before heading for half-sis's birthday party ! it was great, to just see her enjoy her day, even though i had no part in the planning of it. but it was comforting and joyful to see someone just realise that people around her care.
God just made me realise today how much i've drifted from some people, mainly cause i keep going to other churches, or i dont really put in as much effort into friendships as i used to. and God just made me realise the truth so hard. and its difficult, to lay down my pride, and say and admit, that i havent put in effort to maintain friendships, and to show brotherly love, is to love, as christ loved us. i havent really washed their feet for awhile. put aside time, to sail with them on the boat across the sea of galilee.
MABEL ! i'm like to say i'm so, so sorry, that it took me such a long while to realise, that you still do care. every sunday, you're the one who'll come up to me first to say hi, and i know we've had our differences, our arguments and whatnot in the past. i'm sorry not being there for you. i hope you see this !
NAT ! i know things havent been going well between us since december, with alot of shit rising up between us. i guess most of it has been cleared up now, and its been a great blessing knowing you, and having you in my cell. THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS TAKING THE FIRST STEP TO PATCH THINGS UP. it takes alot of courage to take a first step. i salute !
JOEL : hahaha i think back, and i thought to myself 'man we used to be alot closer.' but thats in the past. i apologise, that we drifted so much. unknowingly, but yet the gap is so huge, its probably the depth of 10 firetrenches ! haahaha ORD soon ! lots of time to catch up then (: youth camp too, maybe (:
my dear, dear, ALEX AND JUSTIN : ever since you both went into army, things have changed. and its undeniable. change is nature, and expecially during the phase when 'boys become men'. i miss you both alot. maybe when all 3 of us, when you both can take leave, and i have my holidays, we should take a trip out of town or something. i treasure the times spent with you both, be it just a simple lunch, or just being dumb, or a simple game of dota. sorry i couldnt go down for lan today !
LIONEL : yo dude. we havent caught up in awhile man. i guess we've drifted quite a bit, since our last meeting at block 85. hang out soon man ! miss you dude. though we're in different chuches now, we're still cousins, cousins today, tomorrow, forever (: forlife.
ETHEL, BIRTHDAY GIRL. - happy 20th half-sis ! you know, i realised that we've really, drifted so much, and we were never really that close, as how half-siblings should be man. and i admit, i never really put in that effort to draw us closer and all. and we've been together in so many camps ! the one at R2ME2, the one at salvation army (crazy horse lol !), the one at the geylang campsite, IMBAA at last year's youth camp boy's brigade campsite, and i think there's more but i cant recall lol. man i kinda suck as a half brother sometimes. but your sms really touched me today. thank you so much ! sometimes when i come into church, feeling down and all, talking to you seems to feel like talking to an old friend, where we havent talked much, but its still tight between both of us. brightens up my day. (: THANK YOUUUU. for being there. meet up soon after your taiwan trip, and tell me more about " you know.." :DD
okay thats all (: its 2 am now. and i gotta get up at 6.30 tmr hoho. loong post.
Friday, June 05, 2009
-Friday, June 05, 2009
airport systems was pretty alright. not badd (:
and finally. Management of Air cargo, more commonly know as mgtairc, is tmr. last paper. and time to take a good hiatus. whooo. thank you lord, for taking me through.
lots of stuff to look forward to during holidays. anyone wanna meet up for coffee ? drop me a message on facebook, msn or my mobile. (: i'll gladly make time ! i wont preach, rest assured heh.
msn convo with ser and walks with danny has made me realise alot of stuff. when we cultivate god's presence in our lives, he can speak to us anytime, whenever, wherever, however. and its touching, that he wants to be in tune with every part of our lives. (((: its comforting, liberating to have a revelation of that truth. :)
there's a second part to this post, but i'm contemplating putting it up. i will. maybe. its saved in drafts now. if you wanna know whats it, come talk to me. i'll share with you. (:
okay i'm heading to bed. paper tmr. go julian ! :D
shalommm.
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
-Wednesday, June 03, 2009
now of unimportance.
AIRPORT ADMIN. OVER.
lol the points are still crammed in my head though lol.
let me rant for a lil bit, just wanan get rid of excess info lol.
Airline Flight Ops
C-check : flight controls calibrated, 3k flight hours.
D-check: stripping of aircraft interior to check for structural cracks. 20k flight hours.
Airport Admin
Admin expert : Hr processes done faster, better, and CHEAPO like victoria ! :D
hahaha thats victoria (:
Change Agent: Manage Transformation & organisational culture
Employee champion: voiceof the employee/achieve high staff morale
-END-
hahahha okay thats done with thr ranting part. lol i got bored heh.
two more papers ! Airport systems and Management of Air Cargo ! :D and then its OVER.
heh today's paper wasnt as good as the others, but you knwo what ? god is with me through it all. when i'm mugging. when i head to the toilets. when i'm shitting. when jm's teaching us, when i'm listening to sermons on my ipod in the library, when i'm stoning, when i'm blogging this very moment.
he's with me every single moment of the way ! and you know what ? its not depended on my performance. he's still there to help me and bring me through everything, NO MATTER WHAT.
in me lies a peace that surpasses all understand. and even though sometimes i dont feel the peace, i dont feel like he's there, i know in my heart he is. and when i cultivate his presence, he loves it (:
More Than Anything by Hillsong United is nice man. he's there always for me. and i love it the chorus, when they do the 'dut dut dut da!' then it goes, 'give it all, give it all, give it all to the one who's life.
i had a revelation on just this line. that we dont give our lives all to him, serve like crazy, just to get his approval, and get life that he gives. its BECAUSE, He gave His life away, FREELY. I LOVE THE WORD FREELY.
so that i might have LIFE. AND LIFE. MORE. ABUNDANTLY ! NOT JUST LIFE ALONE. BUT LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY. AND THAT IS A GIFT. A PROMISE, THAT WILL NEVER BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME.
man, i'm feeling the loveeeeee. ((((:
freak man, i've got so much revelation that God has given to me this week. eastyouth, i cant wait to share what god has blessed me with, with you guys! next week will be spent messing around with my drum set, guitar pedals, drinking with some school friends maybe. awesome. woooo ! :D
2355h.
-Wednesday, June 03, 2009
today's paper was good too ! man, i really thank god, because i really didnt understand what the question was about, and god just prompted me the answers. i'm not really good at application questions, but where i am weak, there i am strong. (:
airport admin tmr, and its a freaking huge chunk of info man. SOOPER dry subject. man. and i dont know why, i dont have the energy and motivation to revise. i kept being taken away by my sermon playing in the background, and god just prompted me a verse.
john 15:5.
without him, we are nothing.
i got a new revelation about that verse. amazing, so encouraging. come ask me about it, i'll gladly share it with you. and maybe my mind being unable to focus, i think god wants me to just leave it all to him. because its not by my efforts. he knows airport admin has toooo much to study. he'll help me, and i'll be victorious ! because he's with me. amen. okay, i'm gonna rest. 3 more days ! God, you are the strength in my life.
in him is strength.
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
-Tuesday, June 02, 2009
got no reason to hide.
i'm not gonna hide the grace of god that has been given unto me any longer. people dont like it, thats not important. because they dont wanna by touched by Jesus, its not up to me. but i want to be. radical grace, will have radical results.
airfield was pretty good. thank you lord.
hahaha this is my girdle. which i use to serve, and glorify. but its not the instrument, its the player. and guess what ! the player of this instrument, is thankful for his work on the cross. (:
I CANT WAIT FOR THIS SUNDAY. sorry random outburst, but man, houston is coming ! first time hearing him preach live. so its coool. man, i'm loving jesus more and more. but he loves me a million power infinity times more than i love him !
hoho. and when jesus comes and fills my heart, i find it so much easier to let go matters of the heart. studies, and whatsoever nonsense. i leave it to him. its a fantastic feeling. cause i know that all things will work out for GOOD. and when god says its good, man, i'm gonna believe he means good.
come to me, all you that labour and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest.
in the literal translation, it means, Jesus will rest me ! thats AWESOME. and you know what, in its richest essence, it means, i will cause you to rest ! I HAVE NO CHOICE, BUT TO BE RESTED. and if its a promise from god, man i'm gonna claim it !
i dont care if others want to rest. they want to burn out, thats their choice, and i cant control their choices. but man, my choice is i'm gonna let him rest me ! le the son of god tend to me, feed me, give me water to drink. awesome !
time to stop serving through my own self-effort. i'm gonna let him FLOW. and i'll labour more abundantly, that they all, more abundantly than other people who serve and labour, because not i, but the astronomical grace of god.
AMEN. wooooo ! the holy spirit is flowing. and its such, such an awesome feeling.
got nothing to lose, we've got no reason to hide.
We've got the answer inside of us.
the answer's inside of me.
