and i thank god i did.

at the moment in time, in my heart i was feeling miserable, feeling like an ass because of things i've caused, feeling discouraged to carry on with life, feeling listless, feeling lonely. and then she prayed for me, and it being a prayer from someone who understands grace, she knew what mattered, god's spirit just came upon me, and the tears fell. not tears of sadness, but tears of peace. that God cares. Even a simple prayer over the phone.

she said something that hit me, that God cares so, so damn much, he sent His son to die for me, and God cares so much i cant even explain how much, that every thought i think of in my head, God cares. He knows every single thought i have, and every desire that i have, everything that i think about, and even those i dont think. and He cares so much, he wants to make a difference in my life, and bless me. He wants to be the center of my life, He wants to love me, care for me, wants whats best for me, and just be in tune with my life, my thoughts, my desires, my hurts, my cares, my everything.

Oh great is He, who gave His life for me.