nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to seperate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Rom 839
yourstruly
julian
17.TP.
more than a conqueror.
JESUS.guitar.aviation.JESUS.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
-Wednesday, April 29, 2009
came back from dinner today, and i felt a tugging in my heart to talk to my ncc caregroup leader.
and i thank god i did.
at the moment in time, in my heart i was feeling miserable, feeling like an ass because of things i've caused, feeling discouraged to carry on with life, feeling listless, feeling lonely. and then she prayed for me, and it being a prayer from someone who understands grace, she knew what mattered, god's spirit just came upon me, and the tears fell. not tears of sadness, but tears of peace. that God cares. Even a simple prayer over the phone.
she said something that hit me, that God cares so, so damn much, he sent His son to die for me, and God cares so much i cant even explain how much, that every thought i think of in my head, God cares. He knows every single thought i have, and every desire that i have, everything that i think about, and even those i dont think. and He cares so much, he wants to make a difference in my life, and bless me. He wants to be the center of my life, He wants to love me, care for me, wants whats best for me, and just be in tune with my life, my thoughts, my desires, my hurts, my cares, my everything.
Oh great is He, who gave His life for me.
Monday, April 27, 2009
-Monday, April 27, 2009
was just playing salvation is here on the guitar, and then came along the bridge:
Salvation that died just to set me free.
died to set me free from sin.
freak man. i sang that out loud. and then the spirit just flowed, a new revelation of His love just exploded in my heart man. what an awesome feeling. thank you lord.
This same salvation that lives in me, lives in Paul, lives in Peter, lives in John, lives in me, and it certainly lives in YOU, whoever you are, reading this blog. just claim it in Jesus' name.
walks with Danny at bedok resevoir are really awesome, i really enjoy the time there man.
and its just so enlightening to find someone who can identify, and moreso because its unexpected coming from him. and he's really mature, more mature than me, and talking to him helped me to see the world from a larger perspective, and i guess its also opened my eyes to how much people need Jesus. my utmost, for his highest.
thank you danny.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
-Sunday, April 26, 2009
i went for a chinese drama today by hwa chong chinese drama club at victoria concert hall, and it was amazing. the amount of effort put into the show was remarkable, and it comes as no surprise as its been a tradition going on for 28 years, and this year's no different. i'd like to go again next year. really really awesome.
and i told god, ' watch this drama with me god'.
and then near the end of the show where the people involved all came out, god just said ' watch their passion'. every single one, put their heart and gave their utmost effort for this show. i didnt watch their practices, but you look at their props, which were just fantastic, and their acting, and at the end, when they sang the school song, you could tell the pride they have of their school and cca, and the joy on their faces, which came as a result after the months of hard work, which have finally paid off, seeing a full house on their first show.
and then god said, 'look at their passion. there's so much of it.'
and then i knew it.
if they could have so much passion for something like a drama club and their school, how much more us christians. my attention just phased into another world spent talking to god, and i realised how MUCH, MUCH MORE, do i have a reason to give my utmost for Jesus. because he gave me the BEST heaven has. nothing less, nothing more. and all because he loves me. the son of God who loved me, gave his life for me. how much better a reason do i have, to go all out for him. how much better a reason do i have to have a passion much greater than those students, because the son of man's giving up his life for me was His passion.
damnit. Jesus is just so damn awesome.
and his passion will never die, because his blood still runs through me. the DNA of Jesus still runs through me. and no one can ever take it away. no sin too great can ever take it away. What the world will never take from me. the only thing in my life that it'll never be able to take, because He that's in me, is greater than He that is in the world.
i have a reason to sing,
i have a reason to worship.
i have a reason to go to the ends of the earth for him.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
-Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Music - 重來好不好
so much, i cant even explain.
i just want to pour out everything to you.
but i'm scared that it'll just drive us further apart.
its so different with you. i even dare to say, i love. for the first time, i've loved. a love that a substitute can never replace, a love that is focused.
love is patient. love is kind. love has no boundaries.
i'll still care. i always have, though i might not have always showed it. and i always will.
feeling lost is a lousy feeling :/
its heartbreaking to see you turning to everyone, but me. it pains. it makes me sad. i try to head home early, cause there's nowhere else i can run to, without feeling miserable. having to put on a smile, while feeling so messed up inside, is too hard for me. i'm vulberable this way. i'm weak this way. but i know you have your reasons. i hope you do.
school's been dumb and boring. total waste of time. but the friends are there. those who care. however subtle. (:
i'm still holding on to a glimmer of hope, that one day, it'll work out alright. a day where we'll pick up, from where we left off. a hope, though so faint, that you still care. that we once had something so strong.
a shoutout to danny, simon, diana, fongyee, pearlyn, victoria ! missed you guys much ((:
JuL scribbbled at 5.19PM. between lines of facade.
for god, so loved me, that he gave his only begotten son, so that i can believe in him, and will not perish, but have eternal life.
-Sunday, April 19, 2009
Lord, i want to enjoy you once again.
a chat with a fellow brother, has encouraged me, so much. just keep in rememberance his work on the cross, is all that matters. god is good.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
-Thursday, April 16, 2009
3 dearest disciples.
3 denials.
3 crosses.
3 nails.
3 hours.
3 days.
3 appearances.
3nity.
33 years.
radical grace => radical lives
normal lives -> radical lives = revolution.
Jesus is our Savior There will be no other We will shout it out We want the world to know.
and sometimes i really wonder.
is Jesus the anthem we're singing ?
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
-Tuesday, April 14, 2009
People can say all they want. i'm on the side of paul.
Friday, April 10, 2009
-Friday, April 10, 2009
just a small part of the very awesome cell. the best i ever had. 3 years and going strong. i love them to the very best.
top row : samgoh, myself, dione, jared, eugene.
bottom row: danny, zephaniah, zachary, yongjin.
you guys are the best cell members ever. its really great fun with you guys, and i hope you guys feel the same as well. imba stayovers, crazy steamboat dinners, fantastic boardgame times and all. woooo. pasir ris east cell ! ((: i never regretted leaving sgoon to set up this cell. its been nothing but a pleasure washing your feet. thank you.
my deepest prayer, my dream for you guys, is to see you guys one day realize the true meaning of this whole life. sometimes we lose our cool, sometimes we fall, sometimes we fall into sin. but thats not the point. its not whether you fall, its whether you pick yourself up the right way. you're righteous in Jesus Christ, and no matter how man times you sin, God still dances over you, and he never counts your sin against you. i hope you guys have been touched by the word i've been preaching. there's fun, there's also a time for seriousness as well. i pray, and pray that one day you'll soar with Jesus far beyond your imagination. He's your jesus guys. ((((:
Saturday, April 04, 2009
-Saturday, April 04, 2009
stayover was pretty good. good time spent with people, and i got to spend time with my favourite cell member as well. so thats good. 15 eh ! not bad man.
on another note.
sometimes i feel dry, and its crappy that i'm in two congregations, one of grace, one of law. such a mixture, and your spirit gets jumbled up sometimes. but the power of God unto our salvation, is not the law, is not long prayers, not fasting, not my works, but the gospel. and thats all that matters.
even in the midst of my circumstance, God, is still God. He's still on the throne, and he's still King over my life. God, even in my desert, you're still God, always and forever.
Lord, i'll always have a reason to sing. even if people fail me, time and again, when they fail, when they arent there anymore, i'll always have a reason to sing, because even in my deepest, i still have victory over the devil, over every sin, over every circumstance in my life.
heading off the genting tmr night. not very enthusiastic cause i really need some timeout with god. havent had much time spent with Him. but i trust he will make time. take care guys. (:
