promise
nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to seperate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Rom 839
Saturday, July 14, 2007
-Saturday, July 14, 2007
what with everyone flaming me and all, this week has been a really rough week. and my spirit man has been really hit hard. for the first time in my life, i felt like not attending church. i need a break from the real world. but thank god that god sent people to come and save this little man, who said words of foolishness, and actions of stupidity.
i went for the other band's practice today. and uncle ced came to speak to me. he didn't know what was going on in my life. but his first question was " What are you here for julian ? " and i said, "oh here to observe the other team's practice. " and his next question was " how has your week been?" and somehow i was led to tell uncle ced bout all the tapestry stuff that has been happening. and we had a good talk. and at the end he asked me again, " what are you doing here julian ?" and i said " here to watch the other team's practice and learn something." and he said " no, you're not here for that" and at that moment i thought he was gonna say something bout i had the wrong focus or something. but he instead said "you're here to talk to me. god sent me today to talk to you." at that moment, i just broke down, cause this week was full of shit, filled with discouragements, arrows from the devil, and here when my spirit level was ground zero, god sent someone to lift me up. i just wanna thank uncle ced. and most of all to god.
but then again, i'm not sure now. was putting up that post right ? i guess not. then why did god come to tell me that everything's gonna be alright ? i don't know.
and i've been wondering, "
tapestry is so darn screwed up already, maybe its not others thats the problem, maybe its just me, for having such high standards."
and it links so well to the song stars, "
maybe i've been the problem, maybe i'm the one to blame, but even when i turn it off, the outcome feels the same". sigh, the hidden meanings behind songs, makes me wonder sometimes.
JuL scribbled at 9.20PM. stars.
