promise
nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to seperate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Rom 839
Sunday, July 29, 2007
-Sunday, July 29, 2007
tapestry's over. and i've got mixed feelings about it. sure it was good. it was even better than the raptured last year. the band fusion was there. i could just feel it. playing all you wanted with the girls, all of the above though we didn't do that well. and we screwed up stars. and people say think positive. and i know i've grown so much through this event. as a guitarist, even in the spiritual aspect. i just thank god for all he has done, but somehow after this event. i feel just so lonely, so lost, that life is just gonna go on, and i got my prelims to worry about, and i can't just sit down and tlak to someone over coffee without worrying about the time and what time's my dinner, and when's my exams and all. i'm jsut really lost, and i don't know how i should feel. happy that 91 people came, or sad and lost cause this event will only ever be an event. i love the band. nathan, lio, shawn, ethel, amanada, rachel, joe. and not forgetting matt and evelyn. its just gonna be hard to forget this event and all. these are the best times of our lives.
i remember panicking about the intro and all, and all of a sudden everything seemed stable, and i started the intro, and then the stars intro. and tohugh a bit too fast, we didn't stop and we just hit the song. and like a robot, the songs just kept running, and in a flash, i rmember rocking to the beat of all of the above, and then another flash, and i was watching story of his life do their songs. and in another flash, i'm sitting staring at my lcd screen blogging this and tapestry's over. the countless hours of practice just for a half hour of enjoyment. was it really worth it? i don't know. and no one's gonna change my thinking. its something i have to decide on my own.
like the song gone by switchfoot.
"like al pacino's cash, nothing last in this life. "
JuL scribbled at 12.24 AM. the band.
Friday, July 27, 2007
-Friday, July 27, 2007
tapestry's tmr! whee finally . the long awaited day.
SATURDAY 7PM HEEREN. PLEASE COME. PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE??
heh i can't wait. its gonna be radical. (:
Sunday, July 22, 2007
-Sunday, July 22, 2007
i had a motivation camp for the past 3 days. a little useless, but benefited nonetheless. headed over to joe's house for joel' party. had a great time, bonding with friends, after not coming together as a tight knit group for quite a while. church later. looking forward to it. (:
JuL scribbled at 7.41PM. o levels in 82.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
-Sunday, July 15, 2007
with everything over and all conflicts settled( i guess), its time to move on, with 2 weeks left to tapestry. i'm tired, i guess so is everyone, from all the tension that has built up over the past few days.
and i still clearly remember pastor kenny's sharing on friendship.
somewhere along the way, we will stumble and fall on our knees. and friends will always fail you. thats what i've learnt. but god never fails. but every once in a while, we need a jonathan to be there to help us, to give us a hand when the going gets tough, when you feel like quitting and giving up.
will you be that jonathan?
Jesus Is - Hillsong London
Glory, glory all around
As the universe resounds
And we proclaim that He is Lord
Eternity echoes the song
Creation joining in as one
And we proclaim that He is lord
Heavens cry, my heart sings
Jesus is
Lord of all heaven and earth
Jesus is
Glorious the greatest of all
Jesus is, Jesus is
Evermore, the King above all
Jesus is, Jesus is
JuL scribbled at 10.40PM. be that jonathan today.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
-Saturday, July 14, 2007
what with everyone flaming me and all, this week has been a really rough week. and my spirit man has been really hit hard. for the first time in my life, i felt like not attending church. i need a break from the real world. but thank god that god sent people to come and save this little man, who said words of foolishness, and actions of stupidity.
i went for the other band's practice today. and uncle ced came to speak to me. he didn't know what was going on in my life. but his first question was " What are you here for julian ? " and i said, "oh here to observe the other team's practice. " and his next question was " how has your week been?" and somehow i was led to tell uncle ced bout all the tapestry stuff that has been happening. and we had a good talk. and at the end he asked me again, " what are you doing here julian ?" and i said " here to watch the other team's practice and learn something." and he said " no, you're not here for that" and at that moment i thought he was gonna say something bout i had the wrong focus or something. but he instead said "you're here to talk to me. god sent me today to talk to you." at that moment, i just broke down, cause this week was full of shit, filled with discouragements, arrows from the devil, and here when my spirit level was ground zero, god sent someone to lift me up. i just wanna thank uncle ced. and most of all to god.
but then again, i'm not sure now. was putting up that post right ? i guess not. then why did god come to tell me that everything's gonna be alright ? i don't know.
and i've been wondering, "
tapestry is so darn screwed up already, maybe its not others thats the problem, maybe its just me, for having such high standards."
and it links so well to the song stars, "
maybe i've been the problem, maybe i'm the one to blame, but even when i turn it off, the outcome feels the same". sigh, the hidden meanings behind songs, makes me wonder sometimes.
JuL scribbled at 9.20PM. stars.
-Saturday, July 14, 2007
after a good night's rest, i thought about things and all. i'd like to say sorry to ethel, amanda and joseph. for the shit i said. and what joel said was really right.thanks joel. it does drag down the team. i'd like to say to my band, thanks guys. no matter what shit we've been through, we've hung on, so lets make tapestry good. :D
JuL scribbled at 9.52PM.symphony, of modern humanity.
-Saturday, July 14, 2007
sorry ethel, for the shit i said. lets just work as a team to make tapestry work.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
-Thursday, July 05, 2007
its been a while since i've updated. life has been pretty much okay, with tapestry practices, mugging life. i just can't stand it.
i'm thinking of quitting blogging, partly cause i don't feel like blogging, and my blog's like dead. no one ever comes by or anything. so yeaps, this might be the last post, or maybe it won't. (:
JuL scribbled at 10.47PM.all of the above.
