Saturday, December 30, 2006
-Saturday, December 30, 2006
so the week's been ok.. things have been improving.. went out this week to minds.. had some problems with the staff.. but i rather not comment on it.. cause its not nice. ask me if you wanna know more..i had team 3 jam today. went to swee lee sale but i didn't buy anything. pretty disappointed with myself but i really didn't know what to buy.. not like i had all the money in the world. yea.
so the year's coming to a close. things have been average if i have to look at the whole year as one. many up's and down's.. friendships been torn up.. lost friends.. haven't gained many. but i lost the closest buddy i had.. he was the only person who ever got as close to being an older brother to me.. dude, hope we'll try to become best buddies again. yea, u dig? hope you do. (:
but i'm still gonna take the time to thank god for. i thank god for my ibanez, i thank him for my friends that still stand by me, i thank god for bringing me through sec 3, i thank god for tapestry, i thank god for the gifts he has given me and i pray i will use them as he wants me to. so many things to thank god for..its amazing how God's always been there. loveyouLord.(:
been talking to swong quite a bit. crazy guitarist, yea really cool guy, trying to bring him back to church. the crazy stuff we did together . haha. here's one pic if u guys don't believe me. lol. i've posted this pic b4. yea its the jump of the century! (:
I've been thinking about lots of stuff. and i just wanna end this post with some of my thoughts. In church, we sing so many songs. sing once or twice, then we don't touch the songs for a long time. And i believe that half the time, we don't really mean what we're singing. we just sing cause everyone else is singing, or cause we're supposed to sing.
Tell the World - Hillsong UnitedDon’t want to stand here and shout Your praiseAnd walk away and forget Your NameI’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compares to You
Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you
Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again
No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that Tell the world that
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You !
The bold words 'Don't wanna stand here and shout your praise, and walk away and forget your name' I sing it, but after sunday church, i sometimes just forget that christ is in me, that i'm a living testimony that
Jesus died for me. Sometimes i just go out and i forget myself, do crazy stuff and don't behave like a christian. Sometime we just forget that it was Jesus who died for us,
and many of us, i'm not sure about you guys, but i sure used to be a sunday christian. but still, i occasionally forget. and
Tell the world that Jesus Lives! i sure haven't been really on fire for God, and bringing people to Christ, pointing to them that Jesus is the only way. And these words really hit me.
hard. i just turned on my medai player, played the song, starts with the kick bass intro, then bass, then guitar, then the singer starts singing. And once he sang the first 2 lines, the words hit me and i really felt guilty, about all this time, singing the song, and never really meaning what i said, just giving empty praises. u really feel like some cheater, doesn't mean what he says. i hope you guys will reflect as we enter the new year, and ponder about this:
Have you been obeying God this year? Cause if you haven't, 2007 would be a good time to start. JuL scribbled at 11.34PM. I'm gonna tell the world about you Lord.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
-Thursday, December 28, 2006
its funny how the christmas spirit dies off so suddenly. after christmas, everyone seems like nothing ever happened. its kinda sad to see. well, i guess i'm still in the christmas spirit cause every so often, you might hear me sing christmas carols.. haha. everyone's busy with their stuff these few days and i've got nothing much to do. i haven't been down to minds cafe to play some board games lately, been wanting to go down, so anyone wanna go? btw, mel! get well soon! (:
JuL scribbled at 8.45AM. When the Sun Sleeps.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
-Tuesday, December 26, 2006
things have been going okay i guess. this christmas was pretty fun for me. but christmas ain't all about the presents. its about him. yeap. came to this world, left everything to come into this world, to be one of us. hit me hard this year. never saw it that way. so everything's been ok, school's coming back. so i'm trying to get out more i guess. ha.
JuL scribbled at 11.35PM. left out.
Friday, December 22, 2006
-Friday, December 22, 2006
the myanmar people just came back yesterday. things haven't been going well since they went. now that they're back, things should be better. but so far it doesn't seem like that. seems like since they've went, we've drifted though i've missed them so much. haha. 10 more days to school. god, please, please answer my prayer and help me to enjoy my time with them. yea. the feeling of loneliness that i experienced quite some time ago is coming back. where you go online, and no one really talks to you. no one asks you out, u don't really get any msges on your phone anymore. thats the feeling. Chronic Loneliness.
there's this christmas event tmr, and somehow i have mixed feelings about it. i just wanan hang out with people, and sip a cup of coffee, and review old times. i guess there's not many people like me. haha. so.... any takers?!
JuL scribbled at 11.16PM. sickpuppies.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
-Tuesday, December 19, 2006
OK! i've updated my wishlist! yeap. please, please, prettty please take a LOOK!!! haha. yea. the pickups are all probably like more than a hundred. so yea. the shoes are like more than a hgundred i guess. unless u can find a discount.. my size is US 10 btw!! haha.yeap. so hoping you guys out there.. could cram all your money together and get me something? winks winks!! lol
JuL scribbled at 11.20PM.Premiere-20th dec 7.30, Durian Domes.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
-Saturday, December 16, 2006
i just came back form the.....PLANETSHAKERS CONFERENCE!! in KL. haha. it was good. really awesome. so much better than UV in singapore. though a lil sad that i couldn't make it for the carnival, i still enjoyed myself. this conference was really spiritual, and it was more of a rededication. yea. i won't share much, just that it was good. all praise be to god.
JuL scribbled at 10.14PM. Romans 5:2.
Monday, December 11, 2006
-Monday, December 11, 2006
life's been hard, the school holidays are really dull, and i sometimes wish i'm back at school. but life's really boring now. i'm heading off to KL for the planetshakers conference tmr and all of a sudden, i'm having mixed feelings about going. all my friends are back here in singapore. justin, mel, mabel.. only joel and shawn who are close to me are going to KL. the myanmar team is flying off this wednesday or thursday. can't remember. so i can't send them off. so yea, mel! take care! sarah, you too! though i know my closest buddies matt and tim will take care of you both, so no worries :D.
i went for mel's cell chalet on friday till ytd. really fun but the 2nd day was really boring. so yea. it was an okay chalet i guess, gave me a chance to slack and have fun after a whole week of band camp. yea. i've been doing 3 hours of work everyday since the school holidays ahve started in november and i seriously wanna quit and just enjoy the rest of my holidays. my mom is bugging me till the end of my nerves. i sleep till 10.30 and she makes noise already. can't someone enjoy some sleep after staying awake for 44 hours? yawn. so yea. my body's getting weaker, most of my energy is gone, and from what aunty salome said, my face looks really pale. maybe its cause of all the stress. and my mom says i don't eat enough veggies when i do. the rubbish people talk about these days,
but well, i've gotta obey and honor my parents no matter how much i don't want to. so i'm praying and praying that i'll be able to do so and enjoy the rest of my holidays. i'm really not enjoying my holidays this year and somehow i don't look forward to christmas. Lord, help me.
JuL scribbled at 12.52PM. She's always never there for me like she used to.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
-Tuesday, December 05, 2006
i've pretty much gotten over the fact the the myanmar people have left.. but now there seems to be so little church mates left. and not many people to go out with.. pastor kenny's msg really spoke to me about success. i really wanna succeed in my guitar. but sometimes, i get carried away and think that i'm reaslly good and that i made this far on my own. but god has actually paved the way for me. i'm just walking it. realyl gotta reflect on myself. yea.
so since the myanmar people are gone, my brother's over at lionel's place but my mom doesn't allow me to go which is so -.-! i'm getting lonely and bored at home. i gotta do work everyday and i'm like going crazy. not mentioning the 10 hour band practices that i have. and the people keep talking about committment. and its not like its my fault i've got other committments like work and church stuff. and yea, god's more important than church and some of them even tease me by asking me to quit since i'm so committed to church and just go become a priest. i dunno what to say, but i'm afraid i say the wrong thing, so i jut shut up. but band is really getting on my nerves. the crazy nutty long practices, and their hurtful insults, well, i'm just taking it all in cause anything that can't kill you will make you stronger. and i'm holder on to Romans 5:1-5. so i'm hoping god will just hold me there and support me, and also help me to enjoy my holidays. though i haven't enjoyed my past 1 month holiday..
been hanging out with mabel, justin, joel, serene, mel.. yea around that group.. but mabel went to malaysia today, justin went to dunno where, and serene's going off to who knows where..so there's only me mel and joel left. and joel has shool. so its just me and mel. shawn's always at home never coming out, so yea. where's everybody when you need someone. i guess mel's still here. THANKS MEL! =D. YOU'VE BEEN A WOOOONNDEER,WOOONNDEEERFUL FRIEND! (:(:(: so yeap. life's been sucky and i'm so looking for ward to going KL next week. no more band anymore. even my conductor, Mr Glosz, is pissed with the band and he's gonna quit. i guess i'm not the only one. so no need to see all those heartless people for a week. i'm so excited. here i come planetshakers! (:
(P.S. i don't care if my band people read this, cause its the truth. truth hurts, i know.)
JuL scribbled at 10.55PM. XD
