promise
nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to seperate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Rom 839
Sunday, July 16, 2006
-Sunday, July 16, 2006
muthu has decided to speak again.
this whole week has been a pretty hectic week. i've been practicing like crazy this whole week. clocking in like 8 hours of practice or something. friday i had tapestry for matt's team. was pretty ok. a bit fun. but then again, there were spiritual attacks and stuff. then today, went to church, changed my guit strings and stuff. then headed down to meet the other tapestry teams for a workshop and briefing. some unpleasant sutff and nonsnse took palce during the briefing which i was very unhappy about but i shall not elaborate. yea then headed down to church for practice for marcus's team. then again, there were spiritual attacks and stuff. haiz. 1 more week lord. 1 more week lord. come same the souls o lord.
I've been pretty down this week. all the backstabbing and stuf. nonsense about people. i just can't stand it any longer. i'm on the verge of breakdown and everyone seems to have a problem with me.
IF U GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME, U COME SETTLE WITH ME. U DON'T GO BACKSTABBING PEOPLE.
on friday, i had a problem with some members and i was really irritated. trying to change my style of playing. u say once, twice i'm ok with it. i'm sorry if i'm left-handed and i don't have as much control on my right hand to have many strumming patterns. don't tell me where to stand. i stand where i want to stand. is it my fault that i'm deaf? well, i can't help it. are you gonna donate me a ear ?
today also. during the brifing say me say me. u got problem come settle. don't talk behind me back. think i deaf one. the whole hall so silent then u snicker behind me.
i particularly targeting one or two people. if my fren say me, i don't mind. but if u not my fren u don't come say me cos u don't understand me.
there's a clear line between band mates, team mates and friends. just becasue i know u does not mean u are my fren. so better consider u my fren or just a band mate. i'm really pissed at this. people keep telling me to cool down and cheer up and stop being emo and depressed. but i'm really hurt. a knife has ben thrust into my heart. and everytime someone just keeps shoving it deeper. but the reason why i'm still here is becasue of god's grace.
i feel that this has gone too far. you maybe be better than me in the musical aspect. but that doesn't mean you're always right.
JuL scribbled at 1.11AM. Look to You.
