promise
nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to seperate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Rom 839
Thursday, June 22, 2006
-Thursday, June 22, 2006
Its already been a week since church camp and its the last week of holidays.. depressing man.. been reading more books the past week and just slacking and catching up on music and God. Todae went with the 2 tapestry teams to marian centre and we mingled with the children like playing games and we taught them My Redeemer Lives. yeap was a really fruitful event. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVELYN! After that, went to LJS for lunch then some of the people went home. Then went to watch Just my luck with matt, jmo, serene, elaine and evelyn. yea. starting kinda boring and the ending was also kinda abrupt. After that we split and went our seperate ways. ONly in the train did i realize how tired iwas. ii slpet on te train all the way back home and when i got off at pasir ris, was feeling a bit groggy so i went to take a walk. All of a sudden, i just stood in the middle of white sands, and then i looked around a nd thought to myself, "We're living in such a fast paced world till u seldom see people just sitting down not to have meals but tto talk. Everyone has to rush off etc. how many times do u have to tell your fren 'oh i have something on and i gotta go' yea. i just thought about lindsay lohan and chris pine who acted in ust my luck and i was thinking ' Man, they are so lucky. they make so much money and they do not ahve to worry about money. they have people who all around the world who know them and their job is to act, which is something they like"... And as i walked home i suddenly felt really depressed. Like "Man, i only have 3 days more of holidays and school's about to start and i really gotta get serious or i'm gonna retain.. " Like i got so many worries to worry about and people like lindsay and chris have no worries. they can just sleep inbeds the whole day and drink expressos.." But then as i was reaching home i thought "But what does it matter? We all die the same. So what if they have no worries and they make so much money and i only have 11.50 in my wallet? Does it affect me in any way such that i should be envious? Why should i care that they have things that i don't? But i've got God. Do they have him? If they don't, they're gonna go the wrong way. when they die, all their worldly possessions are gonna disappear. everything they have been chasing after will disappear. Whatever can be seen is temperal, but whatever is unseen is eternal. I have god and i only need him. i don't need anything else. i just have to trust god and he'll provide all my needs. and for that i really wanna thank god. After that, i really felt alot better and while going up ther lift, i said "Thank You Lord, for revealing these thingsa to me such that i may be a better minister to the rest of the world for your name.
I believe God has really spoken to me today and he has helped me realize so many things and that i've been chasing after worldly possessions. So what if a person has a les paul or an SG? If he doesn't have god, he has nothing. If he has god, does having a les paul or an SG make him a better worshipper ? No. Its the heart that counts. And then i broke down and cried and i told myself "I don't need a good guitar to orship god. i don't even need music to worship god. i can worship him anytime. Nad God, I really love you.
Today's experience continues after the church camp and i have gotten many things clearer. Through the church camp, i learnt alot of sutff. but i also drifted from many people after this camp. i feel that certain friendships are beginning to seperate. I'm torn in half and i really dunno who i should go with. i'm being left out of some stuff but its not my call whether i am able to go for these stuffs. I just hope that the friendship that has lasted between us for so long will not be broken. we have the so much in common and our priorities are about much the same. God, Family, Music.. 15 years as close buddies, i hope it'll stay that way. I'll be putting up my song again its called torn in half. its a secular song and i wrote it around last year i guess. or is it the year before? i forgot.
Torn In Half
You're telling me ya' stories,
You're handing me a line..
You're giving me ya' point of view,
but'you never think of mine..
You tell me that ya love me,
You say i ought to laugh,
Why is it that u can't see.
That i am Torn In Half??
I try to laugh,
But i am torn in half..
(Chorus)
The whole world seems divided,
Seems to break apart,
And now what you've decided,
Is gonna break my Heart..(x2)
You say you can't be happy,
With the way things used to be.
That things have changed for ya now,
So they must change for me.
You say that i'll get used to it
That nothing ever lasts..
Yes, thats ya' escuse for it
But i am torn in half
(Chorus x2)
You made some vows a while ago,
Before i came along..
But now i really need you,
You think those vows are wrong..
Ya' headed for a different life
Ya' got a brand new path..
The things you've done cut like a knife..
And leave me torn in half.
You've got a brand new path
But i am torn in half
The whole world seems divided,
Seems to break apart..
And now what You've decided
Is gonna break my heart.(x2)
Just..why can't..ya' see...
That..i..am..
Torn..In..Half...
JuL scribbled at 8.22PM.Revolution
