promise
nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to seperate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Rom 839
Sunday, June 05, 2005
-Sunday, June 05, 2005
Life has been really tough for me these few days..My results suck just accept the fact mom..Can't u believe that every1 has different learning capabilities?Is it my fault that i always get lousy results...is it my fault that every1 else has a higher PSLE score than me?Its the holidays and i wana enjoy it..Let's wait till its bak to skool than u can scold the shit outta u..You dun understand me..If there was a contest for the person who understands me best, Its never gonna be u..its probably gonna be my really close frenz like matt,lio,tim,babax,kelvin etc..its all these people who have played an important part of my life..u have been daoing me since friday..If my results suck, den so be it!I dun wanna get stuck in some dumb 9-5 dead shit job!i wanna be in a band, set myself free,No boundary..and thats what i ahve always been hoping for...its just that so many things that i need, u won't give me..i'm 14 now..half a yr more and i will be 15..a stormy life sux and even when i'm alone, i just cannot find the peace that i need..i seriously need a phone plan..my life has just become a whole lot messier and i am left to clean up all this shit that u have done..if u wanan go mess..dun mess with me..mess with ya own life..mine is complicated enough 3 1/2
years mroe and i will be 18 by then i will be in NS for 2 1/2 yrs den i will be my own man..i am desiring for that but the problem is even now as i get older..i am just like some dead duck who grows bigger every year but gets stuck in the same dumb pond..u ban me from using the com..and i have to resort to waking jup at 5.30AM in the morning just to get a chance to use the com...If i could run away from home, i would..but where would i stay?U guys scold me like u dun treasure me, if thats e case i might as well go F*** off to the world..It would be wonderful if i can find some1 to talk to..many of my good frenz..they cannot really sit down and talk to me..listen to me talk bout my life..i guess some people i can talk to are kelvin, my new frenz annabel and camelia..these are the type of frenz that i ahve been looking for..thx guys..i hope to be there for my frenz but u, i have my doubts..so save ya shit for next time...and i dun like talking to a wall who does not give a damn to wad i say..many people thiink i have a beautiful life, they think i am lucky to have such a mom but u have only seen a side of my mom..i can safely say 95% of all my frenz only know the surface of me..Is it my fault that the basketballers pick on me?i wanna beat them up, i know i can but there are others who will beat me up too..so wad can i do?If my face damn "qian da,qian zhou,qian bian" to them, i cannot do anything..no way would i wanna end up like MJ..so all i want is if u accept the fact that i dun care bout the people around me who are sucessful..does it change my life in any way, i guess not...So if u dun understand me, then so be it..
JuL scribbled at 7.03 AM.Understanding is another step taken
